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2019-06-14 14:53:34 (UTC)

Disappointments

Dear Diary

We're 6 moths in to 2019 and i can actually say i'm grateful to God for sustaining me till now and i humbly ask God to please not give up on me and continue sustaining me. 2019 has been all kinds of challenging, more downs than ups. i feel like every aspect of my life has been suppressing me down and its been hard. I'm glad to officially say that I am only left with one exam for this semester and i also ask God to please give me wisdom and direction to pass that exam with a distinction.

Emotionally and mentally, I've been well. I'm no longer depressed as i used to be; meaning i can finally say that i am healing. As much as its hard to get over the grief for my father's passing but God is slowly comforting me. i mean i do dream about him every once in a while but at least i no longer cry as i used to so there's progress.

Financially, things are still tense. Sometimes i find myself feeling like i am some kind of a burden on my family's shoulders. the more i think about is the more i get fed up of student life, i mean i'm ready to be financially stable. however i did apply for this other bursary and still waiting. Hopefully they will fund me.

Socially, things are tense as well. I do however get to be skeptical about who i choose to associate myself with and usually i evaluate my circle every once in a while and i must admit that right now i'm not happy at all. You know every time i watch those "friends vacation movies" i always think to myself that a few years down the line when i'm done with school, i actually want that but the problem is i haven't found the right circle of friends i actually want to do that with. At some point, i thought i had found that but as it turned out i was wrong. to cut the long story short, i'm ready for some new people in my life.

When it comes to relationship wise, there's no part of me that's exhausted more than this one. i'm literally fed up of hoping, crying and praying i met the one. Somehow I've even decided to stop entertaining these crazy ass niggers. Like, I've heard it!

By the way my hair is growing tremendously and its amazing to watch. Its one less thing to worry about. As much as my future is so uncertain right now, but i have faith in God that he is opening more doors for me. in fact. let me put it in writing; "I declare and decree upon my life that by this coming December of 2019, i will already be working in my internship under one of Government's departments, in the mighty name of Jesus Christ. Amen!!"

i look forward to reading this again seating in my office as a Communications/Public Relations Intern




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