alban

living with deppresion
2019-06-09 12:15:24 (UTC)

nothing

i feel nothing and yet sad and a little hope that she is testing me i tell my self that i will wait if she is testing me i don't care but im scared that it will be worthless and i cant imagine how much it will hurt idk she said i cant see u more than a friend that alone maid myself think why would i even want to live i dont want just coz im successful and shit and she was perfect for me at least she was logical and was the only person that i could argue and think that is something fun to do talking to her was like playing chess i would have to think everything that i said she could see through my lies




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