lilay.xx

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2019-06-01 11:06:14 (UTC)

Where it all began.

Okay, so I don't really know where to start ummm... I'm 15 I have I guess a normal teenage life. I like poetry, photography, biology, music, art and makeup/SFX. I don't really know what to write so these entries will probably be really short and not interesting at all as I don't leave my house. Actually, as my first official entry on here let's start it off with some rumors, shall we?

Before I get to the actual rumor (which is actually true) I must tell you about my ex. My ex Matt he was great I had started talking to him because my friend felt bad for stealing a guy I had my eyes on. I didn't think things would go far with Matt because I wasn't having much luck with guys at that point in time. So anyway I was talking to Matt (I thought he was cute and that's about it) we ended up calling and talked for what felt for hours... it was great. At this point I started to realize he wasn't like any other guy id met or talked to, he was different. A week or so went by of talking to him and it was good, I had some sort of feelings for him I don't even know what they were. So a week had passed and we decided we wanted to meet up and hang out, it was great. He was so tall, had little strands of hair that were grey (don't worry he wasn't 80, he was 16). My personal favourite part was when he was looking at me in this way that I can't describe, it was like the look you give someone where you know they're the one or something. I asked him why he was looking at me and these words will probably always stick with me, "sorry you're just really pretty." This just got me ugh I'm still not over it. After that whole day, he left and gave me a hug. We hung out again and I asked him out cause id basically fallen for him, everything about him was amazing. He said yes and so we were dating (I won't tell you guys about every time we hung out cause who really has time for that). So here comes the important part, he came over to mine and at this point, we had been dating for about 3 days so not that long. We were lying in my bed and hugging (which was great may I add) and next thing I know he got a boner... I thought that nothing would happen and hed just I don't know to keep hugging me? All of a sudden he was fingering me and I was giving him a handjob... yea so that had happened and I guess it was okay? It hurt, not gonna lie. So fast forward to our one-month anniversary, I had to tell him what I did. I felt terrible and couldn't keep this a secret anymore cause the one thing that was making me happy was thinking everything was fine...




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