Do Not Disturb

2019-05-22 00:00:00 (UTC)

I’m A Mess

I’m always around the phone when he calls but he’s never around the phone when I call. If you don’t see something wrong their then I don’t know what is. Then again maybe he’s busy. He’s always sometimes busy.

I tried calling him multiple times but it would always say he’s in another call when he says he’s not. I don’t know what to believe but then again I don’t wanna make a scene. Maybe he’s sleep. He does get tired after a very long hard day of work. I don’t know what to do. I’m going insane and I just saw the guy yesterday. I’m not gonna push him away. I just can’t.

It’s not like he is in another call with someone because he would tell me if he is or if he isn’t.

I work all this week sadly but at least I will be able to pay off my trip. I will be so glad when I’m finally able to pay off this trip so I won’t have to stress over it anymore. I really need to go on this cruise you know just to get away from anything. Everything.

I’ve been so emotional lately as well and I don’t know why. I feel like I’m gonna lose it. I need help. Im an emotional mess. I’ve always wanted to have my own therapist but right now this diary will have to do.

- A