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the anger games
2019-05-14 04:06:31 (UTC)

day 813, plans and stuff

read through half of the syllabus today and will hopefully finish the rest by 6pm tomorrow. I need to review the first half again or else I won't remember it though. so yeah that's the plan for tomorrow.
Han texted me asking for some files and previous years' exams. she's clearly already done studying and has been going through the syllabus again. I really envy her for how quick and organized she is. I don't think I've ever studied properly for an exam without procrastinating until last minute. I really hate myself but what's new.
tomorrow is the night before the exam, it's gonna be so stressful. I'm not sure if what I covered is enough to make me pass cause like some parts I was reading without processing anything. I'm so tired.
I really don't want to be doing this. I've been trying to avoid any thoughts about the final plan™ but it's kinda tough. it's very distracting.
just thinking about how it would feel like to be truly free, to go to sleep and not worry about what tomorrow will bring or reminisce about what the past took, it fills me with excitement and joy I haven't felt in quite some time. I feel like I'm finally meeting a friend or a lover who I've been missing for years.
it's kinda sad but it's also liberating.
I might not have time to write to you tomorrow but we'll see.




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