Eel

Fascination

Why are all these random family and friends messaging me?
Are they actually genuinely happy for my success? Or will they leech off of it? What do I know?
I can't help but think the worst. I'm finally graduating but I'm filled with negative thoughts.
Will I learn to drive? Can I quit weed? Will I like being a nurse? What if I made the wrong choice? What if I hate this decision completely? What do I do then? I guess I just have to adapt.
I love that I forget shit like an idiot and pay the consequences for it later. I'm too afraid to tell Josh that I lost all his games. I guess I'm going to have to buy it in the future for Lupe. Lord knows I don't play it. And Isaly has my copy of Overwatch. I knew I'd come to regret giving it to her but Lord knows she loves playing it more than we do.
I have thirty dollars in my account. I wonder what I should do. Maybe I can put COD on my credit? I don't know. I can't get too cocky yet.