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Letters to My Ex
2019-04-19 01:41:31 (UTC)

Dear Casey 3

Dear Casey,
Guess you’re really doing this thing aren’t you. Let me give you some advice.
1. RUN!
I know you won’t take that advice so here’s some more. Just more stuff I’ve learned from my time with David.
2. Always say yes to him.
I thought recently about where things started to go downhill and I realized it all trickles down to the first time I said no. The time when I ate too much popcorn at the movies and felt sick. I was lying on his bed to rest and he came over. We cuddled before he leaned over and started moving his hands over my shirt. Then under it. I told him no. I wasn’t feeling good and I didn’t want to do it. He laughed as he started moving his hand south until it was right on top of my thigh. I said no again. So he got on top of me. And you know him. He’s a big guy. Almost double my size. And he was on top of me, dry humping me. I had to push against him. I told him I wanted to go home. He didn’t immediately stop but he did. That time (see 11). But then mumbled about how bad of a girlfriend I was. And how I couldn’t do that one thing for him after he paid for my movie. I got so upset that I started to walk home. Me walking home sick felt like a better option than me getting in a car with him. Think about that. About halfway through, I realized it was getting too dark and that I would have to call my mother. I was halfway home and he wasn’t even the one who picked me up. After that, I felt like I couldn’t really trust him anymore. And the next time we went to do it, it felt wrong. I didn’t want to but I did it anyway. I learned what happened when I said no and it’s the emotional abuse and the words after that got to me. If you want your relationship to last don’t say no.
3. Sex is a form of payment for him but not for you
He will tell you that you owe him sex for every good deed that he does for you. Takes you to the mall? Lie back and take it. Comes over to visit? Better be ready. Doesn’t matter how small the deed. But if you do the same thing to him? He’ll get mad. He’ll say that relationships don’t work that way. He did this to Emily too. Although you probably don’t even know her name. You’ll know her as Tattoo. But he made her do sexual favors as payment for being a good boyfriend.
4. Say goodbye to Connor and all of your good friends.
Our relationship was great once too. But David gets jealous easily. After about a year, he started to tell me who I could talk to. He started to convince me not to talk to some of my best friends. When he realized that he couldn’t do that anymore, he started to convince me not to talk to his best friends. Then he slowly started to leave me out of invites. We went on great adventures too. We went to Florida, we went to see Impractical Jokers live. We went to concerts and shows. But then it slowly started to fade away when he started choosing his friends over me. And when he was so convinced his friends all had things for me, that he decided that I couldn’t be around them anymore.
5. His charm is destructive.
There is something about him that is overly charming. I can’t explain it. He’s not even like THAT attractive when you really look at him. He’s a complete dick but like...he was impossible to break up with. Even back when we saw impractical jokers I was considering breaking up with him. I gave him the tickets his birthday back in January 2017 (yes I know his birthday is February 1st) and I kept them because I thought we’d break up by July and I wanted to make sure I kept them not him. That was almost two years before I finally broke up with him. Because as soon as he showed up, I couldn’t do it. Emily couldn’t do it. She got a freaking tattoo to try and keep him.
6. He will cheat on you
I don’t have evidence that he ever cheated on me. You might know. He cheated multiple times on Emily. He was with me for most of his relationship with Brittany. He tells only the information that he wants and he leaves out chunks in every story he tells. So I didn’t even know until the fourth time I was with him that he had dated her. History repeats itself and you’re ignorant if you think you’re different.
7. What he tells you is different from what he tells everyone else
I was the girl he loved at first sight. He asked me out within a month of knowing me. He legit told people he was not attracted to you. That he thought you were ugly. He’s not invested in you, you’re just a close body. That’s why he was sleeping with me in January when you thought you were “getting in a relationship” with him. If he was that easy in the beginning, he’s not gonna be much harder now. Especially if Bri becomes single. He also didn’t want ME to know he was with you either. I straight up asked him about you in February and he denied that he was dating you. Think about that. He didn’t want people to know about you until you surpassed the two month mark. There’s gotta be a reason.
8. Be careful about Bri
He told me he was talking to her when he was talking to you. Bri just got in a Facebook relationship a couple days ago and all of a sudden David changes his status? Yeah. Little suspicious. Here’s my theory... he wanted Bri to think he was single so he’d still have a chance with her. Now that she’s not, he wants to show her that he doesn’t care. He has a thing for her. Always has. He’d leave you for her in a second.
9. Be prepared to be the cause of all the problems.
David was abusive. Straight up. But everything was my fault. If I thought he did something wrong it was “just my opinion”. If I did something wrong, it was my fault and no excuses.
10. Do you consider yourself a strong, independent woman?
Not anymore.
Be prepared to be interrogated. Be prepared to claim that all of your male coworkers and friends are gay. Be prepared to have him check your phone to ask you who (insert name here) is. Everything is great right now. I remember that part in our relationship. I remember us having sex every single night and going on dates and walks and adventures. But I also remember David. And I know that will not last. Our relationship failed twice. And it would have failed sooner if I had kept my friends and my support system. It would have helped if some of them weren’t back stabbing cunts like you. But I would have been free a long time ago.
11. You are nothing but a sex toy to him
Everything I have said so far in this entire diary is the god honest truth. He has talked shit about you for 6 years. You’re a close body and you’re willing. I was a far body. He had to make an effort for me but that didn’t mean much. Because in November, I fell asleep next to him. I woke up for a quick second as I felt his hand on my breast. I turned over and shoved him off. He understood for a few minutes. Enough for me to go back to sleep, thinking he got the hint. But he didn’t. Next thing you know I woke up with his hands in my pants while he’s masturbating right beside me. You want to know why I broke up with him? Because I realized that a lifeless body is just as good as a living one to him. He is a pervert. He is a creep. And he is a rapist because if you think I am inferring that that is the worst he has done sexually, you’re wrong. And the fact that I am someone you once called a friend and you can take that information knowingly and take his side proves you are a complete dumbass and a fucking cunt. And you are goddamn joking if you think he won’t do the same to you. He told me he would. He’s not a stranger and you said yes to dating him so he is free to do whatever he wants to your body. And that is exactly what he told me he plans on doing. In fact, that is basically word for fucking word what he said to me when we talked about him molesting me. He does not believe that his girlfriend needs to give him consent. And right now, that’s you. He does not need your consent to touch you or perform sexual acts on you. Do you agree with that?
12. Breaking up with him is the best thing you can do
I wasted years of my life on him. I spent so many days thinking I was useless. I was in such a deep depression. And now? I’m fucking free. I can talk to who I want. I can do whatever I want. I can go to the shows again. And being away from him has never felt better. And it’s amazing, being with someone who actually respects me. Someone who wants me to grow and meet new people. Someone who wants me to be comfortable and let’s me know that we don’t have to do anything that I don’t feel comfortable with. I hope you gain the strength to leave him too. It’s been three months. If you think you have seen the worst of him, you are in for a shocking disappointment. He is controlling, abusive, and incredibly self-centered. He needs help. And you’re not giving it to him. Worse yet, you are enabling him and taking yourself down with him. I pray that you find the strength it took me two years to find. Because I feel healthier and happier than I have in years and you don’t deserve to feel how I felt. Personal feelings aside, he is not good for anyone. Please be careful.




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