Do Not Disturb
Spring Break !
I'm officially on spring break.
I saw his girlfriend today the same time she walked... And with him. Well not exactly with him more like after him... But still.
I tried not to think about them together like J said but I couldn't. I can't. It hurts so much and he doesn't even care that he hurted me and all he cares about is his girlfriend. I mean all I should be caring about is my boyfriend. Idk. Yes I am jealous. She's red just like me but redder. I felt ugly compared to her.
J is going to the military.
Even he doesn't know that I use to have feelings for him. I don't know if I even want him to know.
Like today when I tried talking to him about salt being in my hair when it wasn't but instead he was talking to some girl that I guess he apparently he knows instead. And yes he indeed heard me but wasn't interested in talking to me.
I doubt he even likes me because he said and I quote " You act like my sister".
I know that I have a boyfriend... I know and speaking of boyfriend he's coming over tomorrow. It's been awhile.
I wanna cry.
I feel like my whole world is crashing down. It is already crashing down.
This is the first time ever that I work this weekend and he is off. And yes I may have looked at his schedule his name is above mine.
What do you expect???
I have all these bottled up emotions and I can't get them out.
That's also why I write.