suh-mone

in my 20's
2019-02-20 04:19:36 (UTC)

things have changed

i dont know how today went so wrong, because it started out BEYOND AMAZING.
i dont even wanna say to much about the goodshit because i feel like i jinx myself when i do but lets just say i had an excellent night with a really cool guy last night. but after work today everything kinda went south. i was supposed to have a date tonight and she cancelled last minute which just gave me s o much anxiety. she says shes sick, but i only half believe her. were currently making plans to reschedule but i wouldnt be surprisied if things didnt play out the way id hope. i was just so excited to hang with her but whatever. i swear girls always fuck me over, but then again, who doesnt. lol
and also my friends fucked me over on some shit weve been planning for a bit now and they both acted like they didnt know what the fuck i was talking about when it can to excecuting the project but that just solidifies the fact that i cant rely on other people for shit when it comes to my music.
i had a friend ask me to sell her friend a song of mine and i was honestly just turned off my that. i used to sell songs to clients, but i think im really more into putting myself out there. i never really felt like i was getting the recognition i wanted from creating music for other people. id rather be stingy and used all my material for myself. i just gotta start recording it all.
(walked away from my laptop for 20 minutes and dont feel like talking about this bullshit anymore)
ill ttyl




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