farewellmymuse

On My Way There
2019-02-23 11:34:17 (UTC)

This Again

"Money can't buy you happiness." there's this saying. However, not having money can't bring you happiness as well. Every now and then I battle with this turmoil inside me. I left my job to study medicine. I chose the path where I will be financially dependent again. My family is not well off. I only have scholarship. Every now and then I would succumb to self pity because I can't even buy myself books. But the most painful part of being poor is that people look at you with pity. Every time I would opt not to join my classmates in different occasions or in an expensive restaurant, they would feel bad. It's such a hassle. Also, people continuously offer me help but it's really hard to accept help from other people even your friends because there will always come a time when they will upbraid all the things they offered and as if you cannot commit mistakes towards them. Because of this, I would always end up with the thought of shifting to a profession which is making money, to get out from those situations, but still my priority is my studies and as long as I am in med school I cant do anything but just be patient.




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