ish

ish
2019-02-21 09:53:25 (UTC)

birthday..........

k...so im delusional .....seems totally wrong...totally........frick....................just steppin away emotionally..from everythign.......just not doin it anymore...........always still thinking on axel...just fade already...just feel so unended i guess.....hard to let go.....but i cant go back to what was ...i am not that girl..and cant be...and i dont think he could ever allow that...im saddend that it is that way..........can dream....i guess.....just hard to let go stilllll

is my birthday......lol so far not impressed.......but im hopeful it will get better...hadnt really taken alot of note really...just another yr older yay.........i feel every single fucking year...........................o well up maybe hubby will help me out...or just watch porn....is where it all goes these days is safest bet to keep it that way..............or just do what ceil does..lol....not sure what she does to them.....but oviously is the wrong idea............cuse another has seemed to fallen under her spell......................must be that submission thing..but she is only so much....more thn i am i guess...........ooo well....not interested in exploring it any further....cept on teh Domme end...so be it.........just not gonna do the attactcment thing keep single....no men...wooot..think that will be a definate ................tired of the thinkin that women dont have brains ......so monkey minded.............and so many out there see it that way...o well....us girls know better..their loss cuse they wont be having so much of us with that thinking......................anyhow....to bed..im exhausted......had the girl yesterday she ran me ragged...................nite world.....happy birthday to me.......have a great day .....smileling at myself.....yes...will be doin just that.....




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