Jilly Beans

Boys, Liberty, and Other Things That Nearly Killed Me
2019-02-05 23:20:43 (UTC)

Entry 21 - I Cant Sleep

It's late at night and Im having trouble sleeping. This is perhaps because the ordeal with my workplace has left me very unsettled. I feel down about myself, I feel stupid for making those errors. Am I to blame myself for not being good or intelligent or focused enough? Or do I blame the situation and the environment for not being conducive enough? I hate to put myself down and blame it all on me for the misgivings. Somehow, I feel accountable why I feel this way and why these are all happening to me.

Im just lucky to have a husband who supports me and knows what to say to make me feel better. I do believe it's a talent when people just know what to say at the right time. My husband is like that. Despite what I am going through, there's a fraction where I feel a bit light.

Im terrified going back to the workplace tomorrow, I hate that place so much.




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