Truer than True
Through My Eyes
To my dear brother (Chad Anthony Willis) I love you so much and I’m sorry for not being there for you as a big sister should have. I’m sorry for backing away a few years ago. I always thought when you needed me you would contact me. I was wrong. I should have looked for you like I’ve always done in the past. I guess my mind has not been in the right place the last few years because I didn’t even realize it had been so long since I’ve seen you. I didn’t know until I received the call from the County Corner office. She called me on 10/16/2018 to tell me you had passed away on 9/26/18. I was advised you was struck by a car, they believed you may have done it intentionally because there was evidence of you a attempting to cut your wrist before the incident occurred. I blame myself because I should’ve tried to find you. I believe you may have forgotten where I live. I’m still unsure how since you did move here with me but you only stayed a few days until you received your money. I’m extremely mad at myself when you left after moving with me and you sold the cellphone I let you take with you. I told myself you would contact me when you were ready. But unfortunately that was not the case now you’re gone and I can’t help to think I’m responsible. I’ve been crying daily. I’m crying now. I love you so much and I want you back but I know that is not possible. The only comfort I have is knowing you’re no longer on the streets doing drugs. But I miss you and will always love you.