Today was a good day until I wanted to leave the house at 7:25 and then I was told I had to wait until my brother Ryan was ready to go to school. But like usual he was not on time for school and it made me late. My past few weeks have been really odd because it feels like I have to try even harder to fit in with my friends. My best friend Katelyn always acts like I am the mean one but when we are around people she just roasts me all the time to at cool. The days at school get worse and worse everyday and I always hope it will get better, but it never does. I try to act all tough and try to fight people all the time because it is easier to be mean than it is to be nice, for example its easier to have people ignore you because they are afraid than have a conversation that you do not want to have. I feel like if I just do not have friends and I try not to fit in and go off on my own everything would be better off alone than someone I am not. I try to be someone I am not to fight the person that is on the inside, but it hurts to be who I really am because I really would not have friends then. I wish I could just be one of those kids that can sit in the back of the classroom and nobody would notice them, and they were invisible. In high school everyone wants to be popular but at this point all I want to be is invisible for the rest of my sophomore year and till I graduate. In the life that we are given its hard to take it away but I have had the thought where I would take my life but ended up thinking of who I would be hurting to take all my pain away. the though of taking a life we were given is ruining all the peoples life that cares about you to take your pain away. But to take on persons pain away it will make more than one persons heart hurt.