Canadian Cutie

Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
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2019-01-27 16:42:52 (UTC)

Productive.. Sunny Day ☀

Listening to: Crazy for this girl - Evan & Jaron (love this song)🎵
She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
Yeah, I'm crazy for this girl
Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you

"You don't get the ass you want by sitting on it" ~No clue lol

Today was a very productive day..My house is spotless, my laundry aside from one load in dryer is done and put away. Dinner is cooking (despite not being hungry, others have to eat apparently lol) The sun shined all day! It made me feel good :) I managed to hit the gym and I didn't succumbed to the beating it gave back. I kicked it's ass and still had more to give so my trainer (who's a friend of mine) and I had a few good rounds of kickboxing. I told Him not to hold back because I was a girl because I wouldn't lol..I actually knocked Him down! ha! He was laying on the ground saying "I pity whomever was in your thoughts behind that punch" LOL, nobody was.. Just pushing myself out of my comfort level in all areas, not just spiritually and in my growth but physically as well. Change is never comfortable. By the time we were done..I was dripping in sweat and felt I laid down everything I was feeling on the gym floor. Before I left.. He said to me.. I want to show you something.. Hmm, that's never good lol but I agreed.. He said "brb" and left for a few while I laid on the floor wondering how I was going to get up lol He came back and extended His hand and I took it. We sat down on the weight bench and He handed me His phone.. on it was a picture of me..It was at my highest weight ever..the first day I stumbled into that gym..gawd.. I immediately started crying.. I hurt for her..He knelt down and gave me a hug and said "I didn't do this to hurt you, I want you to see how incredible you are and how far you have come. I have seen you so sad some days when you have come in here this past while and I knew I had to remind you"....I just looked at the picture...saying nothing.. til He took it and flipped through a few more then handed it back "This was you when you hit goal the first time"..I looked at it and said "If this is supposed to make me feel better..epic fail" and I laughed. He laughed and said "no..this is what you achieved when you set your mind to it"..He took it back and went to another and said "this was you two months ago"...."ugh, still, not feeling better here K" lol..He said "no, but cmere" and took me by the hand to the wall..."smile now"...I made a silly face and He took the picture" and came to me...."Now look at now..look at 2 months ago....now, look at where you are going" and back to my goal pic...."You have done this, you..not me..you. When you set your mind to something..you do it..you are one strong ass woman who can accomplish anything you want to"...I was honestly speechless and that is rare, for those who know me lol. I sat back down on the bench and He came over and crouched down and said "you are stronger than anything you are going through, you have the power to do anything you set your mind to, I've seen it time and time again since I met you 12 years ago. Not just in weight but in life. I know your story"....I started crying and I felt like I wouldn't stop. I literally sobbed as He hugged me.. I wasn't crying over anything or anyone.. I was crying because I felt like everything I was holding in just hit the surface and spilled out of me in form of tears. Talk about sob lol.. I had to laugh however when He said "want to beat me up again?" as He patted my back lol. It was funny. We talked for a bit longer before I left and drove home. I text Him when I got home and said "thank you, I really needed that"..He's right. I haven't had the easiest life but I still manage to land on my feet and smile again remain positive.

I came home and had a really hot shower and laid on my bed and closed my eyes and listened to one of my youtubers talk about spiritual growth while I soaked in a face mask..It felt rejuvenating and calming. The sun was shining in on me while I laid in bed and I felt it really helped calm me and put me in a good place..I really felt positive energy. I then put clothes on and met up with my best friend E for a coffee. Was good to see Him..He hugged me and said "you are vanishing before my eyes" lol..He said my hard work is really showing and He is proud of me..We had a good talk. I asked Him how He's feeling about the breakup He went through and He assured me He's good. He said thankfully feelings hadn't developed so there was no real hurt there. He just knew He couldn't give her what she wanted and let her go.. It was a good talk overall and promised to see one another again this week despite how busy it gets. He's a good friend. I am having another tarot reading tonight and am looking forward to it. It's kinda cool how despite how many readings I have done and by how many trusted readers I have gone to.. I get the same answers.. there is no way they have spoken with one another and swapped notes lol yet they say the exact same thing, same cards just in different orders and worded almost identically. There has to be truth behind tarot. I truly believe it. If I ever had doubts.. I don't now.

Tonight? Put away the last load of laundry and then do some more research. I have written lots for my submissive journal, just need to put it into my journal..there is lots there already but so much more to go in. Maybe I will do that tonight. Otherwise? puppy cuddles and watch some of my recorded shows..fun fun. I work tomorrow, usual hours..We are supposed to get a snowstorm tomorrow, yuck.. I have said it before and I will say it again, I am not meant to be Canadian, I am meant to be a beach bunny, not a snowbunny! lol. Ok going to go finish making dinner..

I hope everyone has an amazing evening.❤


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