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2019-01-26 19:25:05 (UTC)

Disappointment

Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. I have been preparing about a month for a concert with my local symphony orchestra. For about the same amount of time, I have been wondering whether or not to invite the girl that I am interested in. On Wednesday, I cracked and asked her after about a month of playing it cool by not texting her. She said it was possible that she would come, but she also "had a party with her friends." Just as I was leaving to play at the concert after putting on my tuxedo, my phone lit up and she told me she couldn't make it. My heart sank as I realized just how little importance she places on me while I giddily wait for her every word. I played the whole concert, feeling miserable with the thoughts of where she was and what she was doing that was so important. It was a terrible day, and so today I have just been sitting on the computer all day doing nothing. I have got to learn to either lower my expectations of other people or to learn to be happy by myself. For now, I'm just going to act like nothing happened and keep playing it cool. Unfortunately, Valentine's Day is right around the corner...


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