Cupoflove

Cactus in Bloom
2019-01-25 19:57:49 (UTC)

I was not the one.. in the flesh

The alarm rings…
it’s a beautiful way to start the morning isn’t it?
Dreadful actually . My emotions have been all over the place .And my eyes have been so tired to even cooperate in my waking moments.
But today…today I need to put on the super mommy face .
So I dress my princess in her sparkly dress. The type of dress
That mocks you of how much of a fairytale your life is really Far- fetch from. but I smile as she twirls in it.,Because today… today
the fairytale must go on for her . So I wish her the best . And just like that shes out the door , well on her way to the big fancy musical event she'll be attending in her small big world today.
Me in the other hand decides to sleep in just a little bit longer.. .just enough to numb.
Because today my life differs than hers…
Today I miss someone, But him as him
I miss the simple thing which are truly has became the most valuable.
I miss waking up to greet him with good morning text.
I miss calling him a dork when his sense of humor was lame
I miss allowing distasteful music to enter my ears drums lol …at his request
At times I would even cheat and mute it ,
But i still adore the heartfelt lyrics which became a part of him always.
I miss checking up on him to see how his day went
I miss making sure he ate for the day
I miss his laugh , oh how I miss his laugh
I miss giving him the feeling …
The feeling of poetry flowing from his heart through his hands
I miss my body craving his … and his craving mine ,making him feel like nothing else matter but that moment in time.
I miss wanting to smile just to make his day better
I miss him so much… so much that it would take me longer that I thought possible to express
But I also know it would be selfish to want “him as him” from a distance
He needed someone would could do all this and more ….someone in the flesh. Not me here as air.
And no ,I don’t agree with a lot of the actions of this new women in his life but at least …..at least she could caress him in flesh.





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