No More Playing
Day 9 without playing with myself, it's tense. At first it took allot to resist but then it felt good to not touch, now I'm on day nine and I want to play so badly. I need to get myself under control, I was doing this 3 times a day and sometimes more. Jeez that hurt to type, I don't know what "normal" is but, doing it to hide other feelings that need to be expressed is highly unhealthy. Masturbation should only be done when really horny and wanting it, not when depressed. Now is one of those time I'm really horny and I'm trying my best to resist the urge to cum... I feel dirty when ever I say, type or write "cum." I want to see how far I can go, surely better than this.(fuuuckk, is this what no nut November is like?) I need help, what I have is an addiction and it needs to be controlled. The most I've done it in a day was 7 or 9 I think.... ANYWAY.... SHIRE is back so YAY! I will be updating my diary as much as possible though, I think it's a very healthy way to vent my problems. I can say more and get feed back. Support was stronger over there but reliability is better here. Plus over there is more of a quick vent, here is where I store my thoughts, views, opinions, wants and desires.