Canadian Cutie

Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
2019-01-05 16:51:26 (UTC)

Seen my hard work staring back at me..

Listening to: Never Be the Same - Camila Cabello
It’s you, babe
And I’m a sucker for the way that you move, babe
And I could try to run, but it would be useless
You’re to blame
Just one hit of you, I knew I’ll never be the same

I am home from shopping and lunch with the girlfriends. Got my "little black dress"...I was kinda scared actually to buy one because I still don't see how far I have come but I just jumped into it we shopped around for one....well me, few hours later standing in the dressing room while my girlfriends all handing me dresses.. I felt like a doll being dressed lol. I now know what the whole show about "say yes to the dress" is about lol, I tried on this one form fitted black dress, comes just above the knees and very flattering, I absolutely fell in love with how I felt in it. I came out of the dressing room and two of my girlfriends cried haha, you'd think I was getting married. I really did see my hard work staring back at me in the mirror. I felt good and confident. I bought it...for those that are curious, this is the dress..( Knit Cold Shoulder Cocktail Dress/productDetail/Cocktail & Party/369192/cat37630731)then we went to Victoria Secrets and I may have spent a bit more there. I bought a new lingerie set, a bra and panty set, stockings and a garter belt and straps because I have a hell of a time with stockings staying up lol. (not all for vegas, just need better fitting things) My girlfriends all bought dresses too and they looked absolutely gorgeous. I found a beautiful pair of heels that look identical to the black Valentino Garavani Rockstud T-Strap Pumps, but so much more affordable. A cost I won't feel guilt over tomorrow lol. Felt nice to spoil myself :) We had a good lunch, lots of laughs and now I am home.

I came home in a good mood but that subsided once I checked my email to see if SS responded.. He did and (physically) He is ok, thankfully but emotionally not so much. His email was a bit cold so it concerned me and I asked him to speak to me and instead of talking. He basically pushed me away. I asked Him why He was and He didn't deny it, hurts. I don't know what I did wrong :( I thought we were there for one another but what else can I do.. I said I understood and will give Him time and space to sort out all He's going through. Hate when people I consider my friends hurt and I can't help. I only hope he reaches out to one of his close friends. Everyone needs someone.

Not sure what is on the agenda for tonight. My best friend E asked me to get together and chat. I may.. I texted Him back but not heard back yet.. My girlfriends wanted me to go out tonight but I don't feel like it. I am still a homebody... love being at home. So not sure if I will see E tonight or just stay in and soak up puppy cuddles. I had a bunch of Christmas Hallmark movies recorded but deleted them all as I did not want any reminders of Christmas. Oh E text me back now..looks like I am going to run out for a short bit. My daughter is out with a group of her friends and I am not sure when or if I have to pick her up so I will go now..

Hope everyone has a great evening.. please say a prayer for my friend SS.. <3

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