Esmeralda_Bramble

Like a Moth to a Flame
2019-01-02 14:27:00 (UTC)

No News Is Good News

I wasn't planning on making an update since nothing's really been happening in my life, which is good, i guess. But I found this meme, which to be honest, I don't fully understand, but I took it as a variation of a new year greeting:
(A picture of Spock with his iconic hand gesture)
"May you experience sufficient levity and fortuitous circumstances during the next orbital revolution of your species' home planet."

So here's my obligatory 2018 year end review:
2018 has been a very challenging year for me. Too much pain, depression, and anxiety. My relationships were tested. Fallen into a really bad place, emotionally.

But it was also a year of so much learning and growth. Learning about myself, identifying my mistakes and errors and realizing that I can do something about all of these. Reconnecting and deepening relationships with people I love and trust. Strengthening my faith. Finding meaning in life again. Finding hope. I felt I had a crash course in life -- in the past 8 months.

I also learned to connect with people (albeit online) who have similar troubles as I do. Sharing experiences, learning from each other's experiences, providing comfort and compassion.

I think it was also the year when I overcame my depression. That is a big deal for me. I still get down from time to time but I can bounce back faster now.

Wow, thank you 2018! You sure were challenging. But as they say, "nothing that is worthwhile is ever easy". And I AM FUCKING WORTH IT!!!

With the new year, I have new perspective. I am learning to re-frame my thinking and mindset. It's not going to be perfect, I may still fall back into old habits, but hopefully I will catch it quickly and adjust accordingly.

Happy New Year!




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