Aeryn Sun

Uncharted Territories
2019-01-01 19:01:16 (UTC)

New Year, New Me?

I've experienced so much growth since being here at the Lik. I've definitely come out of my shell, not completely, but enough. I'm more social to the point that people don't think I'm shy. I take on more leadership roles, ie leading the Haunted House, even though they require being in the spotlight. I have more confidence than I did in SA. My confidence has wavered here and there, but for the most part it's still in tact. Now when I'm interested in a guy, I actually go for him like I used to in my younger days. And I'm finally ready to be in a relationship, so looking forward to it. Also, I've made close connections w/ people here in such a short span of time; normally it takes me ages to let people in. I've been trying to reflect on all the lessons learned here and take them with me into the future and to Hawaii. Sometimes though I worry that I'll forget them once I leave this place.

I'm a little sad because I've had so much fun in this 1 yr than in my 4 yrs in SA. I've made some really good friends and going to miss them. 2018 was a phenomenal yr and I was sad to let it go. Such crazy times here, I don't think I'll ever have that again, but I'm gonna try. I'm worried that once I leave here, I'll go back to a boring life like I had in SA. But is that possible w/ my personality and everything I've learned here? I hope not.




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