✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2019-01-01 04:40:16 (UTC)

New Years

I’m sitting here, 20 minutes to the new year, and I’m kinda just sad.

I’m alone.. my boyfriend isn’t around.. him and I had issues the day before yesterday..

I packed up my tree, currently sitting in the floor with boxes and tubs of decorations on my bed.. haven’t taped the tree up all the way.. thinking about letting it go until tomorrow..

It feels like it wasn’t even Christmas since papa died week before. Ever since he’s gone, I haven’t been running around the house doing everything every 30 minutes.. but I’ve also been really sick since the funeral.. and now I’m on my period.

I just always feel like a loser on holidays.. because I never do anything interesting or cool.

I can move on with my life.. leaving behind papas health scare, aunt S’s alcoholism.. all the break ups I had..
and I do love my papa.. but now I don’t have to leave my grandma behind to take care of him..

I have a lot of hope that this year will be better.. I hope I can finish growing up.

Sincerely,
Me




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