Canadian Cutie

Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
2018-12-25 20:53:51 (UTC)

Drained

I am home and house is back to normal, everyone gone home but who belongs here and truthfully, I am happy. This Christmas wasn't how I was hoping it would go at all.. It started good.. then my mind wandered a bit.. and that upset me and I started fighting back tears..then Christmas went to hell when my own child treated me like total crap more than once and in front of family :( I tried so hard to give them a good Christmas :( I fought back tears the entire time out but lost it and started to cry when I got in the car to come home. Arrive home, change..youngest has an anxiety attack. Dealt with that and now I am just done. I am drained, emotionally and mentally.. I just want to let today end quietly. Fucking hate feeling this way. Fucking sucks.
I am second guessing getting involved with the other Dom B. I kinda told Him so too. My heart isn't healed. I told Him I am scared and He keeps reassuring me He won't hurt me, even promises but you can't promise those things. He's so nice but seems too good to be true. I just don't know..my heart isn't ready. Not going to make a decision tonight feeling how I do.
I was given a gift today that truly held a lot of meaning and I will cherish it often and wear it daily.
Think I will go take a hot bath and cuddle with my puppy in bed..Hopefully sleep finds me easily tonight.
I hope everyone had a good Christmas <3