Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
No ho-ho spirit.
Quiet remainder of the day, I finished making dinner, put the laundry away, did the dishes and relaxed in a scolding hot tub with a lush bomb and a hot tea. Felt good, felt my stress fade away as I just closed my eyes..for the moment I could just forget everything and everyone. It felt good for the time. Now I am laying on my sofa as I type away on my laptop but my puppy keeps interrupting by placing his paw on my arm wanting attention. I keep pausing to suck him up. Will be a short entry tonight as he just wants cuddles.
The Dom I am talking to, wants to see me tomorrow after work for a brief bit, just to connect before Christmas gets chaotic for us both. I agreed so we will meet up for a few just to have a quick coffee and talk. We had a bit of a disagreement today and I was ready to back out due to a situation similar to what I had when my ex and I first started.. We managed to talk about it and I understood after His explanation. All was fine..We both agreed I am not His yet..(despite him wanting me to be) I am not ready yet and my heart is still elsewhere.. I need to go slow. He understands and is content with the time/attention I am able to give at this moment.
I absolutely love Christmas but honestly..this year? I just want it over.. I have no ho ho spirit.. I should considering how important this Christmas is..I just don't. I just want it over and for 2019 to come. A new year...hopefully full of happiness, this year was good but losing someone I love so deeply..well..isn't how I wanted this year to end..I need to focus on myself this coming year and hit my goals and finish this journey I started many years ago. I see the finish line.. I am not waiting til 2019 to start my resolutions, I am starting boxing day.
Looks like NY's eve may be fun.. Can't go into much detail now because it's still in the works.. but if it goes as good as I am hoping.. It will be an incredible way to ring in the new years. We shall see..
Ok puppy is not letting up..off to go cuddle up and watch some Chicago Beef Cakes.
PS I will be changing my diary name..soon