Scream Above the Sounds
The End Where I Begin
'The End Where I Begin' is probably my favourite song by The Script. I think it's extremely underrated, I first heard it on FIFA 09 I think. So strange for a song like this to feature in a game like FIFA. I'm glad I know it though, it's powerful.
Sometimes tears say all there is to say
Sometimes your first scars won't ever fade away
Tried to break my heart
Well it's broke
Tried to hang me high
Well I'm choked
Wanted rain on me
Well I'm soaked
Soaked to the skin
It's the end where I begin
I didn't go into college today, no real reason why. I honestly just...didn't want to I guess. It's our last week before Christmas and I suppose I'm feeling quite lazy and not very motivated. I still woke up quite early, I was up by 10am which is pretty good going I guess considering I went to bed at like 3-4am. I'm pretty excited to break up for Christmas now, not that I have anything planned, it'll just be nice to chill and not have any worries or deadlines.
I'm going to my friends tomorrow night for some drinks and a 'video game night'. He's bought the new Super Smash Bros and I desperately want to play it, I'm looking forward to it. I could do with a few drinks to be honest, it feels like it's been a while. I don't really have much else to be honest, I should be looking at doing a few shifts at this new place soon. I'm pretty sceptical about the whole thing, I don't like how everything is done online, electronic signatures etc. People have reassured me it's all legit and stuff but I don't know, I guess it's just new for me. It's easier, for sure, it just feels dodgy.
This year has gone crazy past, I suppose it's been non-stop really. I've been through a lot this year and so much has changed. You get a 'memories' thing on Snapchat from days that you took pictures on. This time last year, loads of pictures of my kittens popped up on my phone. It made me really sad, I do miss them a lot. Would it be a weird thing to say 'I wonder if they ever think about me?', of course they don't. They wouldn't even recognise me now. SIgh. I've never had a strong bond with animals before because I've never felt like they were mine. It was different with these though, I had them from when they were so young, it just felt so different. Maybe I'll get another pet eventually.
I'm going to do some new years resolutions I think, for the first time ever. Just shit that I really need to do, I've been talking about starting a gym for about a million years but I'm just too scared and lazy I guess. I want to start eating healthier too, there are tons of things I need to do to better myself. We'll see, I'll write a list soon. My mood has been a lot better the past few days, I know it isn't going to last but I'm going to enjoy it whilst it's here.