A Closed Mind is An Open Book
2001-10-10 23:43:15 (UTC)


I feel very lost. Is there a God? I really would like to
know. It's really bothering me. Joel is trying to convert
me to christianity, but I'm very skeptical. I almost want
to try my hardest not to believe a word he says just to
spite myself. But if I ignore him, will I remain
religiously void forever? The thought of not having
anything to believe in scares me almost more than having
something to believe in does. When I was younger, it seems
like the more I was told to believe and to pray for things
to get better, the worse my life got. I just want an
answer, without feeling like I'm lieing to myself.