marielmia

Mariel is MIA
2018-12-09 11:37:41 (UTC)

Disappointed. Twice.

Well, maybe i am overthinking things with Brian. Friday, we went to the movies and then a late dinner. He drove us to my place and i asked him in. He said he had a great time, but it was late and he had some early errands to take care of. i guess i wasn't all that upset cause my period reappeared earlier that afternoon. Just to note, i'm all for period sex - i can be very earthy - just not the first time with a new boy.

So Saturday, we went to this country line dancing place and there was a lot of laughing and fun. We even smooched a bit during the night. But again, by the way he lingered at my door, it was going to be a no go. i don't know if it's me or something with him. Maybe i just need to take it slow, but i'm not sure i can right now. i feel like my libido is on fire with no quenching in site. iDK. i could just pick up the phone and order up some D. i think i'll give it some more time.

Spoke with M this morning and i had to endure the embarrassment of telling him what i was up to with Brian. That's our agreement. He also put it to me directly about his club and my initiation. i felt i needed to say yes, which made him happy. i guess he will start to explain the ceremony and what i am to do when he comes in a couple weeks. i wonder how i'll balance him with Brian. Or if i will at all. i maybe down to one of them by that time.
Right now, i think i'll be my only lover. It will have to do.




Ad: