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ish
2018-12-08 11:30:46 (UTC)

occlusion............

feel like hell still....seems daddy is back...not that i would know cuse he never has desclosed as much.............figure he has alot goin on i guess................i dont really feel like going on much....play a game of greedy or two is about all i seem to be able to really care to do......rather get off the puter and do things otherwise......i need start prepping the kitchen to remodle maybe in the spring....i know the bathrooms need it..but that just seem a bit out of my jurisdiction..................

have gotten a bit done for the shops......guess it really is a hurry n wait thing............but at least i have inventory now...............

want to make a aquamarine stone necklace for Brogi bear....is her birthstone but is very expensive so i will do it with silk cording.....might be a few months before that is finished.......made sierra amythist....is a stone near and dear to me....she is my first borns first born.....is a stong healing stone...will serve her well has some amazing energy................

would love to make one for daddy....would be one like mine i think lapis and amythist........i want to so bad know whats up with him.........just getting a distant feell.....seems when hes away unless there is more the connection seems as if he forgets on me....and i guess that is how it is.........something to fill the empty void of what isnt...............i dont know....havent a clue give up trying to understand really.......................why is it so hard for me to feel him through,, that barely there strand,,,,, i am not sure........i know he must feel it too......or maybe not......lol who would know..isnt as if anyone really tells me much of anything...................anyhow.......maybe he is rethinking things for his future.....totally wishing him luck with that.....i trust in his succuss.....though you know would be amazing for him to get out of africa...........and as i say that i know...that home will always be africa to him....how wonderful that is........................i want the best for him always....and i will do my best to conseed nothing but possitive thoughts and energies with him......he is amazing to me.......and in that light.....i wait patiently for him to need me........and if i can and am able.......cuse a girl cant wait in bordom.........will abide what i can..............i can do only that much.............

so have been to bed and now am up again....is 5 am and body hurts ...i played greedy for 2 rounds....uggg k hot bath maybe will help.......wow .............feel so alone atm.............k...so hot bath n bed.....going to take this stuff the the shops soon....make a day of it..............will be good to have company..........ok uggg maybe just to bed will need feel better




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