JustAGirl

The break up
2018-12-07 21:53:04 (UTC)

You didn’t have to stay..but I deserved better

You were never forced to stay.. but I deserved better then no goodbye let alone an apology...

I know I am spiraling since Emily messages me... i was doing so well.. I was waking up no longer thinking of you.. I was finally able to breath with out missing you..

I thought I came to a place of being okay with no closure .. with the fact that closure is a joke ...

I stopped posting for a while just to see if he would look.. I stopped checking his stuff... I stop crying at every stupid white truck I saw ..

I went on a date two weeks ago.. I don’t even know if I wrote about it... it helped with the spiral ...

He was nice or so he said.. but he made me sick to my stomach.. he was all over me ... he kept trying to hold my hand and rub my back.. and I couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable... I hated it.. for some reason I missed you... even though we stopped having sex the last year.. for reasons I’ll never know.. I wish I didn’t miss you.. I do




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