My Memos To The Void
Dont get your hopes up
So, I am a bit of a pessimist, obviously, I have depression and it skews my vision of life.
I have issues with attachment, which made a relationship rather difficult. The beginnings were hard, and when I finally broke down my walls I became codependent. I broke my codependency and now have a normal and healthy view on the relationship. I wish i didn't, sometimes. I wish i had kept up my walls, because every time I get hurt, it cuts deeply. I had not seen my love in a month, he had been gone for work, so last week he came over and I got to see him finally, only for a few hours. We planned on having the whole day together today. I asked him to come over the night before thanksgiving and leave to go home after the morning, he refused because it cut into family time. I asked him to come over friday night, he said no because his sister planned on spending time with him. So today, I finally get to see him. He calls me, and says his friend wanted to go on a drive. His friend lives and hour away from him in the opposite direction. It would take him an hour and a half from his friends house to get here. He said "I cant tell you how long it will take but ill be there tonight"
I guess I am rather frustrated. You cancel on me when i took a day off of work? You dont think you could tell your friend, the way you told me, that you had plans? I dont want to be one of those bitchy girls who thinks theyre more important than everyone else... but I would think that this instance you'd consider the fact that I made so much effort...