Phillip Wilson

Amazingly, I survived my Life
2011-09-30 00:05:09 (UTC)

2004 REVIEW (PART NINE)

March- Childersburg, AL (continues)

(acerca de 7:34 A.M.) The first scene of Act V, of “Titus Andronicus”: “. . . for that I know/An idiot holds his bauble for a god . . .” That is “Aaron” speaking as he is about to be hang. “Aaron” is a Goth, and, unlike England, Goth society is not theocratic. I’m not _aying to Shakespeare personally, but a society of no religion during the Elizabethan Age was how the United States “saw” the Soviet Union!
However, the phrase is a wonderful indictment on religion! The Freedom From Religion Foundation must be reminded of the phrase!
People use to make excuses for William Shakespeare’s racism, saying his use of blackness to mean evil and conniving was only a dramatic contrast. But no, Shakespeare may have been only echoing his times - after all, he wrote his plays not as “art pieces,” but as a way for the company (acting) to save money and make a bigger profit, and he only gave the people what they would buy via Box Office - but then Elizabethan England was theocratically racist, if I may use that orymoron.
William Shakespeare, as a playwright, is vastly overrated! I use to tell people that. Shakespeare, however, didn’t write for the Common Person: He wrote for no body in particular! HIs aim was Box Office! In this sense maybe Shakespeare was democratic: Money is money!
That a Shakespeare play has a reputation for pretensiousness and elitism is an insult to literature! Apparently the low self-esteem upper-classes are hell-bent on appropriating something they feel the inferior masses won’t and can’t appreciate. In that sense, Shakespeare died for your sins!

(acerca de 8:_1 A.M.) If not for Dr. Stuart Baker of the F.S.U. Theatre department - I don’t know, maybe all theatre departments at collegiate level are bad things to buy into - I would be much further advance in my Shakespeare’s use of clowns study: Remember, I had hope to do such research when I was enrolled in his Tragedy course in the Fall of 1998, hut he discouraged me, something a teacher must never do, but telling me via e-mail (?) that there wasn’t many sources on Shakespeare’s use of clowns, which I now know not to be the truth!
It seems to me that a clown appears in one of Shakespeare’s plays whenever the hero becomes mad or feigns madness. In the case of “King Lear,” “Lear” is mad from the first. It makes “you” wonder, then, if clowns are not dramatic metaphors for madness!
“Dr.” Baker also thought it “funny” that I emphasized the fact that the hero dies in a Shakespeare tragedy, as if such is a given! Maybe it is, but Dr. Baker had no business humiliating me for a lack of proper undergraduate training! And besides, I was not a theatre student!
If Stuart Baker is the best that Florida State University can do for facuty, th_n it should go out of business as an act of goodwill to the country!

(acerca de 9:09 A.M.) For me to judge all women by Anita Matlow, Joyce Baxley, Thurley Wilson, Mandy Rollins, Mary Holt, etc, is as bad as a person judging all African Americans by the behavior of the worse elements!
It just occurred to me that Black “leaders” are doing their “followers” a grave injustice by saying that what I have just said is wrong because African Americans are individuals, while at the same time claiming to speak for the Black community by insisting that African Americans have one voice!

(acerca de 9:56 A.M.) A.B.C. NEWS and N.B.C. NEWS shared the early evening (5:30-6:00 P.M.). Alabama Public Television is currently “running” a fund-raiser, so my normal Sunday afternoon program - THE MCLAUGHLIN GROUP - was pre-emptied.
I had planned to watch the replay of MEET THE PRESS on CNBC at 9:00, but the subject matter - the sex scandal of the Catholic Church - made me seek late-night television elsewhere, like on N.B.C., where LAW & ORDER was coming to a close and, due to a football game, LAW & ORDER: CRIMINAL INTENT began about nine minutes past 9:00.
The closed-captioning on all three LAW & ORDER units - the above two plus LAW & ORDER: SPECIAL VICTIMS UNIT - is a jumble. A person that must rely on the captioning to “listen” to the shows wouldn’t be able to!
I wonder if Dick Wolf, the producer of the LAW & ORDER units, is aware of the fact! Or is it blatant discrimination against deaf people?

(acerca de 3:50 P.M.) My “job” at C.A.C.C. is not unlike Kayla, or any other child, player helper, with a toy wheelbarrow, toy lawn mower, or toy whatever! The child is allowed to help her/his parents, just as long a s/he doesn’t get in the way! The “grown-ups” (Eric?) do the actual work!
So I felt this way as I laid concrete on the sidewalk extending from the main entrance/exit of the administration building!
A nice, sunny day when I began, but the hard-blowing Wind quickly blew the Yellow away. The low-70⁰’s (F), however, withstood the blast.
Yesterday afternoon when Deah and I were walking towards the wooded area at the “end” of Princeton Drive, Deah “trespassed” on the yard of Jay Anderson, across the street. I am trying to “teach” her to stay out of private yards. For one brief moment, however, I had the urge to do extreme physical violence on the dog. Just for a tenth of a second, you understand. But I didn’t act on the impulse. Though I imagine that spouse-and/or child abusers get the urge and have no choice but to follow it through: The impulse, no doubt, last much longer than a tenth of a second and the only way to free oneself of the “epiphany” is to obey it!

(acerca de 5:09 P.M.) If I ever think about returning to active performing, I need only consider my right knee!
Jenifer Edgerton claimed a bad back. Then why in the hell was she clowning? Actually she wasn’t! And nobody can ever say she was!
If I cared for my family more than I do, I would kill myself so that it wouldn’t be burden with me. But I don’t care for my family, and don’t “you” ever let me hear “you” said I do!

(acerca de 6:27 P.M.) Apparently it wasn’t a part of my latest dream: I can still recount it! Of course it replayed itself in my mind throughout the day, for some reason!
A female is in the office of another female. After a conversation, the first female starts towards the second female, unbuttoning her blouse as she walks. This female “corners” the second females and kisses her. The one kissed protests, saying that she is happily married to a man. The first female wants to know why being married to a man prevents her (the second female) from kissing.
In the end, the second female eagerly kisses the first female on the lips, as lovers (often) do!
Another thing that occupied much of my thinking today was the fact that no two people are alike. But every, say, tenth person is the same as another tenth person! For, you see, “you” can divide humankind into groups of, say, ten, and no two people will be the same.
The problem is that there are too many “tens,” as I told Richard Pereles in 1993!

(2nd, About 7:31 A.M.) I’m sure there’s much more to the dream than what I have managed to rescue, but I present to “you” scenes - more like a scene - from the “film” “shot” this morning, sort of like a “trailer” or preview! Deah was once again the “star.” A long leash was attached to her body. Somehow __ was associated with a vehicle. I recall panicking when I couldn’t find Deah and the leash stretched ___king the vehicle. The “end” was hanging over the “cliff” of a ditch to the left of the vehicle.
As happens with LAW & ORDER, the dream ended just as I was to find out if Deah had been hanged or or not by the leash.
Guilt for not being a good owner? For, albeit a very brief period, wanting to inflict bodily harm on Deah?
Rain fell overnight: It left “droppings” behind. In fact, a Drizzle began the dance as Deah and I were walking, around 10:00 P.M.!

(acerca de 7:55 A.M.) As pathetic as it is for a 54-year old man with a Master’s degree, I have turned to Monarch Notes to enlighten me on the Enlightenment, or Age of Reason! David use a Monarch Note guide to Voltaire’s “Candide,” written by Dr. Laurie Rozakis. I am familiar with “Candide, “ having studied and researched it in graduate school, but it seems that I didn’t study and research the satire enough!
There is no reason for me being as ignorant of the details of the Enlightenment as I am! Something horribly went wrong somewhere!
I claim deism as my “religion.” Deism was the major belief system, or best known, during the Enlightenment. It took my teaching supervisor, Ursula Morgan, to re-enforce what I vaguely knew from gossip.
It was Steve Holt that reminded me of the opera “Candide” by Leonard Bernstein: It was sometime in the 1980’s, at the South East Lake house.
I can’t believe I was in the awful shape that I seemed to have been in! No wonder people considered me “retarded”!

(acerca de 8:40 A.M.) When I reported to work yesterday, several of the inmates were engaged in construction, which, as I soon fround out, were building a shed for Milt. I don’t suppose, as long as the inmate remain on campu, that the law is being broken by the inmates engaging in non-C.A.C.C. work! Unlike what Eric does: He is without a doubt breaking the law!
Well anyway, I searched for the home-made “towel” that I had found, but was unable to find it at first. I was sure that I had left it inside the shop by the cement. But it was neither there nor out under the carport.
You know where it was? It was being used to prop up a trailer! So I substituted the 4” height for another 4” height! Milt was amazed that i was able to lift the back of the trailer all by myself, but I did!
You reckon Milt was the one that abused the “trowel” in such a fashion in the first place? I don’t doubt it: The inmates have much more respect for stuff than that!

(acerca de 3:55 P.M.) “You” have to wonder: Why in the world would I ever need to know about Autocad? Autocad is a computer program for drafting! But just in case of the one in a million odds becoming “one,” I brought home “Autocad For Dummies” by Bud Smith.
I spent most of my work day sorting the books in the textbook “depository” in Building “H.” I hand trucked two boxes of mainly Economics books to the nursing school. I gave some to Benji Amberson, across the street in the machine shop.
Danny Coleman, the drafting instructor, accepted some drafting books (though not “Dummies”).
“You” also have to wonder: If Jean-Bertrand Aristide, the recently-disposed (Sunday) president of Haiti, was the tyrant he was reputed to be, why would he voluntarily resign the presidency? That’s not in the nature of a ‘dictator”!
The fact that there are even suspicions regarding Mr. Aristide’s removal from office is a “sign” that maybe he was, indeed, kidnapped by the United States as he said in a phone call! It won’t be the first time the United States had manipulated events!
Maybe the United States didn’t take direct action: It could be as the assassination of Diem, president of South Vietnam in 1963, when the C.I.A. looked the other way when democracy was violated! “God” knows the record of the United States would logically lead anyone to such a conclusion!
And the fault isn’t just with the Bush administration! No telling what interference occurred in pat presidencies!
A drizzly day: Which is why I worked in the book depository in the first place! A Spring-like low-60⁰’s (F), but the splendor of the day was countered by the Rain.
Ancient Athens (5th century B.C.E.) formed the Delian League. It basically created the organization as a way to “nation-build,” to create mini-Athens. That is what the Organization of American States is: The United States wants to be guaranteed at least hegemony in the Western hemisphere!
Another similarity between the United States and Ancient Athens!

(acerca de 4:50 P.M.) The 3-4 minutes of THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:26 P.M, P.B.S.) I “missed” yesterday evening didn’t leave me with writer’s block, as “you” can tell! Those minutes were only the first part of the news summary, which “The Daily Home” provided for me this morning.
C.S.I.: MIAMI (9-10:00 P.M., C.B.S.)? This may be one of the finer programs on television, but I am tiring of it! Damn if I know how a person can sit and watch television hour after hour! Unless one is a television critic or in the industry in some other capacity, one must be bored with life and has a lot of time on one’s hands!
Yesterday and today, I “reviewed” the “dirty trick” that the Methodist Church played on me in 2000, 2001, 2002, and the first three months of 2003: It just knew that I was an easy mark for re-activation, being that, as The Shepherd’s Flock undoubtedly thought, I had come home to “mommy” as an escape from life, not because I had no place else to go! Can “you” blame me for being anti-organized religion? If i can do anything to stop Christianity from forcibly displacing Islam in Iraq, I will. So help me “God”!
I remember the criticism that this country levied at Cuba years ago: It (the United States) claimed that aid workers in Angola (?) were really military personel. It is said (“Freethought Today,” “The Humanist”) that many American aid workers in Iraq are secret Christian missionaries.

(acerca de 6:32 P.M.) Please help me to understand this: It is generally accepted by the Conservative Christianity that Islam was founded by a bellicose, dastardly man. Jesus, on the other hand, is “created” to be a peace-loving, gentle sort of guy (these people won’t ever consider the opposite description of Jesus!). Yet the Roman and Spanish Inquesitions were “invented,” not by Jesus, but by humankind! What a sad state of affairs that Jesus’ name is forever identified with these - and there are many, many more - “institutions”!
If it is true that Mohammed was a bellicose son of a bitch, at least he was “out front” about it! His followers will admit what kind of a man Mohammed was! Whereas Christianity openly does the exact opposite of what Jesus is said to have done!
In doing a right-to-left “fountain,” never let the ball coming from the right hand rest in the left hand! In other words, don’t catch it. The left hand only supplies the ‘outside force” to change the direction of the ball.
I say this because I can feel that the ball in my left hand is leaving the left hand quicker than it (the ball) use to! Not quick enough, but it will in twenty years or so.

(5th, About 7:35 A.M.) On taking to Milt yesterday - he was “supervising” the “destruction” of the “house” that had stood at the entrance to the dump; the wood and nails are being used in the construction of Milt’s personal shed - I was told that people were coming out tomorrow (now today) to convert Building “H,” where I was working at the time, and Carpentry shop into classrooms. With Milt, one never knows what will happen. The truth will be revealed later.
An African American male - early middle aged - stopped his car, as he was traveling to the highway on the road that “circles” the campus - at the moment he was just past the “bend” to the north of Building “F” and I was “south” of him to his left - and asked me about the truck driving “department.” I explained that truck driving was not even a part of this campus, that it was in Sycamore. I gave him the option of meeting with Bert Sims. the co-ordinator, but he insisted on the department, and asked to be pointed in that direction.
I gave him directions: After getting back on the highway, go to the light, take a right, go all the way to the end of the Winterboro Highway, then another right at the traffic light, and then someplace in that area, that I hadn’t been to Sycamore in a while.
When I went down to the shop to confirm the location of Sycamore with Milt, he - sitting in a chair next to the wall outside his “office,” overseeing the inmates building the shed - was almost patronizing in telling me that I had sent the man in the right direction, as if I was a child just learning to give direction. Although Milt is naturally patronizing and one shouldn’t take it personally!

(acerca de 8:13 A.M.) The cats had the bathroom floor in a mess yesterday with their pissing, etc. So as I was waiting on my ride, granny “told” me that “not tomorrow, but the next day you will have to mop the bathroom.”
Yesterday evening, Joyce mopped the bathroom floor, either to lay a guilt trip on me, or to ensure that I didn’t “beat” her in fulfilling household chores.
Granny made a special trip to tell me that I wouldn’t have to mop, that Joyce had done it.
What was granny’s motivation in rushing to tell me?
In removing trash along the walking track yesterday afternoon, I came upon a silver metal flashlight. It came home, battery-less, with me. If still function, I have emergency lighting taken care of as soon as I get some batteries for it!
There are several books relating to diesel mechanics and truck driving in the book “depository.” There are also books on transporting hazardous material. Milt was my “consultant” on the usefulness of the books.
The note I jotted down several weeks back, concerning my loyalty to the United States, expressed while I was touring with Carson and Barnes Circus: Obviously, it was sometime in the late-1980’s. I was in the “cookhouse.” One of my Mexican fellow employees asked me if I thought that the United States was losing its “power” and influence in the world. I answered, “Yes!
Of course, Ronald Reagan was president at the time, enough to make any American a doomsday prophet!

(acerca de 8:44 A.M.) All these months I was blaming Kayla’s attendance at the pre-K operated by the First Baptist Church for her (Kayla’s) frequent illnesses when it may be here that the child contacts the rascal germs: The cats traispe around the house after being in the litter box, ensuring that fecal matter is on their paws! No matter how clean one cleans the litter box, the floor undoubtedly becomes infected!
I can’t get over Mary Holt’s dumbfounded response, back in 2002, when I explained to her that, for every cubic or square inch of animal, so much space should be alotted to it. It was early Sunday evening; she and Steve and the boys were visiting, no doubt to get me back to the Methodist Church.
Mary had sat in the non-rocking arm chair in front of the picture window.

(acerca de 9:53 A.M.) Several months ago, author Tom Wolf spoke at some event, which was carried by C-Span after-the-fact. In the speech, Mr. Wolf said that this was the age of freedom from religion. Now, however Mr. Wolf came up with that “historical” label for the early-21st century, it makes one understand that only a minority of people incorporated “reason” into its daily life during the Enlightenment: For are most people clamoring for freedom from religion?
Historical profiling: Scholars are so desperate to distinguish the “layers” of the history of humankind that they exaggerate any “movement” in order to come up with a label. When we all know that people are people, regardless of the year!
A student of history can easily reach the conclusion that humankind was at its peak during the 5th century B.C.E. But there were assholes and George W. Bushes - excuse me for repeating myself - back then, also! The only difference in that they dressed funny back then!

(acerca de 3:50 P.M.) I am in the process of “de-sawdusting” the trees. It seems that the horticulturist that provided the trees made an inspection this morning and told Ronnie that the sawdust should, or must, be removed!
Milt informed me of that “fiat” from “on-high”: I was just about to ask him (Milt) to let me in the carpentry shop so that I could get some more sawdust. He was in the truck, having just “pulled out” from the shop (engine pointed to the east) after bringing down a load of lumber from the recently-demolished house.
Not trusting what Milt had said, I went and spoke with Ronnie himself, after I had journal to Allen’s Food Mart for a pack of Ole’ Kentucky cigarettes ($1.93).
Sure enough: Milt had spoken the truth for once. Ronnie also emphasized that he wanted all the cigarette butts from the ground in front of Building “E” (Science Building) and the Machine Shop (Building “F”) off the ground!
Acting upon Milt’s suggestion therefore, I emptied the sawdust/dirt/pine straw on bare spots scattered around the campus (behind the library, the “hill” to the north of Building “F,” etc).
I don’t know if Ronnie called here for me, or Joyce called granny with the news that Ronnie was trying to get in “touch” with me, but the first thing (well, the second thing) granny said to me after I had walked Deah and come back in the house was “Did you talk to Ronnie?” or some remark concerning Ronnie’s attempt at making contact with me.
The “horticulturist” was again on tour with Ronnie around 2:00. I was headed back to the shop when I saw the “whore” inspecting the tree to the south of Building “H.”
Once Ronnie and the tree man had departed, I asked Milt the “rules.” Milt explained to me that the “hort” had demonstrated how trees should be trimmed.
Which I found amazing: When I had cut the bushes that time the hill on either side of the road that circles the campus, Milt encouraged me not to. This was four-five months ago, at least. And I pruned the trees to the north of the courtyard, and both Milt and the inmates were sure that I had cut too much.
I told Milt I didn’t care about the trees anymore. I also hinted that just because the man owns a tree nursery doesn’t mean that he is a “horticulturist.” It appears that he is just trying to impress with hs alleged knowledge!
A tree - several trees - has died due to, as the inspector tells it, lack of water. But the tree next to it didn’t. I “explained” to Milt that trees are like people: Each has “special” needs.
It really wasn’t the sawdust that was threatening the trees, as death by lack of water demonstrated!
The tree nursery owner is not unlike an optician: He is only trying to sell CACC more trees, as an optician intentionally finds fault with one’s vision in order to sell glasses!
It was - is - a lovely Spring day for “de-sawdusting”: the low-70⁰’s (F) and sunny, most of the time. Grayish Clouds telegraphed Rain, but Wind moved Them to another location.
Mike (Eric’s assistant) had spread sod on the barren hill with the small bull-dozer” The sod came from the drainage ditch on the north end of campus. I usd the tiller and broke up most of the clods of dirt/sod.
I also hung up two of Deah’s towels when I arrived home, and soaked her jacket (it is still in a bucket of water). Deah was connected to the “clothes hanger/tree in the back yard all this time.
Given the way the division chief was lying naked on a bed next to a nude female police detective in his squad, the shot had obviously digitally manipulated! I don’t know whether to be embarrassed that I have only yesterday evening figured out that the nudity in NYPD BLUES (9-10:00 P.M., A.B.C.) is “rigged,” or proud that I am knowledgable about television/film technology!
The male, on his back with a sheet over his left thigh covering his penis and pubic area, was “looking” to the left while asleep.The female was to his left, lying on her right side with her left leg “hiding” her “jewels.” She was looking right while asleep. Neither was touching.
I have the feeling that each was filmed separately on a chrome-key color, and then the two images laid on a bed! No telling how much the other scenes in the sex part of the program were virtual!
Can technology de-cloth a person? Is that the way NYPD BLUES does it?
Prior to the cop show, I heard about the Super Tuesday election from C-Span, C-Span 2, CNN, etc, for about a half-hour.
The “chief” on NYPD BLUES announced his “retirement.” “Andy” later talk to him in private in his (the “chief’s”) office. The chief is pissed because he was passed over for captain. “Andy” tells him that if he really loved the job, then what did it matter? Of course, the second phrase of the sentence is left unsaid. But we all know what he means!
I believed that once about clowning, but it got me into trouble! Just look at my situation now!
Half of THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:26 P.M., P.B.S.): As great as this show is, a man “gotta” eat sometimes!

(acerca de 6:26 P.M.) As Christians do with the bible (as I’m sure Moslems do with the Koran), one can find a representive of any historical “period” (Renaissance, Romantic Period, etc) in current society.
I have no doubt that there were writers, artists, philosophers, etc, of one of the labelled, profilled “ages” that were outstanding and much better at what they did than those that have come to represent their age! The former, though, were probably too independently-minded to keep to a limited pattern defined by society at large! Whereas the latter “sold-out,” as it was.
The “characters” in NYPD BLUES are semi-”one-sided.” That is, they each respond predictably to a crisis the same way each time. Although each “character” has her/his personal life displayed at times, there still doesn’t appear to be a major difference between the “character’s” personal life and the way s/he approaches her/his job.
There is an article in the March 2004 issue of “National Geographic” about Talladega, AL. I brought it to Joyce’s attention yesterday evening, and she read it, later returning the magazine to me.
While eating diner, granny asked me “You didn’t get fired, did you?”
Joyce asked me if Ronnie “found” (?) me today. I told her - she was at the kitchen sink; it was around 6:15 - that I had “found’ (?) him!

(4th, About 7:09 A.M.) I remember a dream, but nothing about it. Or did I only dream that I had a dream? It could have happened that way for all I know!
Most things one wants to articulate. Juggling is not one of them. What I mean by this is, when doing the vast majority of things - dance, playing a musical instrument, etc - the individual components should “stand out” as if the thing could end on any one of them. The part are, in a sense, more important than the whole.
In juggling, however, it’s the whole that counts: The individual parts are a blurr.
For instance, in the “Fountain,’ the “catching’ hand doesn’t “hold” the ball, even for a thousandth of a second!

(acerca de 7:34 A.M.) I won’t doubt that soon - very soon - it is reported in some magazine or on television that sawdust is a pesticide that will keep trees disease free. If such really ever happens, I hope I am no longer at CACC!
“President” Bush believes it. Secretary of State Colin Powell believes it! In fact many, if not most, of the Bush administration believes it. And it may be true!
A letter from Anne B. Herrington of Ashland, AL, appears in “The Daily Home” for March 3, 2004. The writer urges that ‘The jail birds and the guys in the pen need to be sent over to those other countries and make them fight.”
I’m sure Ms. Herrington is only voicing what many - too many - feel and have always wanted. Yet I have no doubt that these same people support George W. Bush when he laments that the resistance fighters in Iraq are “thugs and crooks.”
Why just the other day Colin Powell described the anti-government forces in Haiti as “thugs and criminals”!
How is it to be, lady? You can’t have it both ways!
No wonder Voltaire had a low opinion of the Common Person! That is the only constant across Time: The Common Person! This Herrington woman could easily be a 16th century European! And she wouldn’t be the exception of be unable to fit in!

(acerca de 8:10 A.M.) Yesterday I told you how Mary Holt had non-responded to my announcement about the space needed by an animal. It wasn’t the first time that I have such a reaction! The first I can remember was in 1977: Jo Clifton was the subject. It was in the Hollywood section of Homewood, AL. I was on a long, extended visit to Jo, her husband Robert, and her two children by a former husband.
Robert had previously told a joke about “The Piccolo player if a Mother Fucker!.”
Jo’s father was a Christian minister (any connection to Jo’s anti- Christianity and allegiance to the Baha’i Faith?). One morning or afternoon, at the Hollywood house, I said to Jo that her father would love the Piccolo player joke! (or I stated the declaration something like that). As Mary Holt did, Jo stared at me dumbfounded, without saying anything.
I didn’t think about this until I reported Mary Holt’s strange behavior.
I explained that the need to eat oftentimes interferes with watching the whole of THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:26 P.M., P.B.S.). Well, it happened yesterday evening for about ten minutes! The final 5-6 minutes, I voluntarily ended my watching of the program.

(acerca de 9:00 A.M.) GREAT PERFORMANCES yesterday evening (8-10:00 P.M., P.B.S.) presented “Concert for George,” a tribute to the late George Harrison. I was aware that he had been active after The Beatles broke up, but I had no idea that the George Harrison Cannon is as extensive as it is!
At the end of LAW & ORDER: CRIMINAL INTENT last Sunday evening, the “A.D.A.” quotes Clarence Darrow (?) to the male lead: “The first part of your life is messed up by your parents. The second part is messed up by your children.” (the quote may not be exact). The male lead replys to the “A.D.A.”: “Not if you don’t let them!” Meaning one can only blame one’s parent and one’s children for jut so much.

(acerca de 3:50 P.M.0 Her hands are nice and soft! Her forearms are delicious-looking! The nape of her neck! My, my my!
I wonder how the rest of the hea_ bus driver (female) is? Will I ever find out? I doubt it!
Either sawdust is trapped in my right eye, or the nefarious sty is back! But it is all I can do to keep my eye open!
It happened when I was “de-sawdusting” the tree at the south end of Building “E,” before I resorted to goggles. So far, tears have let me down!
As if this isn’t bad enough: There is something floating around in space near the earth’s surface that has pissed off my sinuses! My nose has “ran” all day, and is currently on a “marathon’!
Things are otherwise looking great! The upper-70⁰’s (F) is having Their way with us! Wind was, and is, naughty: Which is why my nose “ran” - and ‘runs” - for its life! Alegens is at nose’s heel!
With my eye as it is, I will have to write in short sections.
“Shit” happens, as “they” say!

(acerca de 4:25 P.M.) Once again Milt lied to me: Nobody came to “arrange” for classrooms in Building “H” and the Carpentry Shop, yesterday, as he told me, Tuesday! The only “inspector” was the “horticulturist”(for lack of a better word)!
The sap from a living pine tree is used by the tree as a defense against insects. Therefore, sawdust, especially when rosen is present, is an insecticide. I may be wrong: I will have to esoteric study. But this is what I told Milt this morning, after I had asked him if Ronnie had any comments on the concrete laying in front of the main entrance/exit of the administration building, and the flower gardens I have made by “stealing” from the regular “beds.” I was rather “smart-assy” in my conversation with Milt.
The inmates trimmed the trees this morning. Several of them and Milt were sitting on the back of the CACC pick-up that Milt drives, which was parked in the rear area of the book store “loading dock.”
The day was Yellow at that time (around 11:00). But that Yellow was “yellow”: It fled from Nimbus!

(acerca de 5:00 P.M.) I picked up cigarette butts this afternoon. For over two hours. Hundreds of them! And I “ain’t” done yet!
No wonder Ronnie was “pushy” about the “errand” yesterday!

(acerca de 5:21 P.M.) Is this a bad time to tell you? It’s a bad time for me to mention it, but I need things - anything - to report! Writing takes a lot out of me! Well, it does when all is well with me!
Oh, by the way: Deah is also “ill.” She “threw up” a little while ago! From eating too rapidly: For the puke was undig_sted dog food.

(acerca de 6:45 P.M.) I was sitting on the ground behind Building “C, the north end. It was around 2:00.
I was facing the southwest.
A co-ed, on her way to C-3 (?), asked me if I was having fun (I was picking up butts at the time). I made a response, which I have forgotten. There was about a 3-4 second pause when the female and I stared at each other. Then she told me that what I was doing made the place look nice.
I don’t even want to “say” what I feel was behind the pause: It would be pure sexist of me! But I only wish I had been handling her butt instead of a cigarette’s!
An elderly lady plays guitar on the “Concert for George.” Did she win a chance to play on-stage with a rock band in some concest? The woman must have been in her late-seventies!

(acerca de 7:58 P.M.) Do you realize that this date back in 1956 - yes, I was alive - was 3/4/56 or 3, 4, 56?
It’s Steve Kilbury’s birthday anniversary. He is, what, 36? He was born in 1968, the year of my high school graduation.
Tuesday was 3/2/04, but three years ago it would have been 3-2-1!
Deah is not the only “pucker” in the family! I was told, this morning (by granny) that Kayla is ill, “throwing up” and “throwing down.”

(5th, About 7:55 A.M.) The only thing that Sleep is letting me take to the conscious world is that a female minister and I were growing fond of each other, but I explained to her that our religious differences - she was a Presbyterian minister - were too great.
This younger woman, who I thought wanted a real relationship, started driving away before I got in her car, but I “jumped” in. I failed to “take” the hint.
I also remember something about thre_ not-quite-right something or another.
But I’m wrong to “p__sh” Dream. It obviously doesn’t want me to uncover any more of Its mysteries!
I don’t know about my neighbor’s, but the “m___” in my eye has been removed. I don’t care by whom, or for what reason! Just that it is gone!

(acerca de 8:32 A.M.) The cover story in yesterday’s “The Daily Home” concerned “Bingo for Books,” a method of paying for school textbooks. But I know first-hand how the money will be wasted, if the books in the Building “H” “depository of books” is an indication! As I have stated several times, before I began to give the textbooks away, a great many were still in the plastic wrapping they originally were in. They had never been opened!
No telling how much money was spent for no purpose!
I’m sure C.A.C.C. is not alone! And the waste is most likely not just for the two-year college!
The Pledge of Allegiance is as much indocrination as McCarthy-ism! In fact the former is in essence the permanent legacy from the “witch hunt”!

(acerca de 9:02 A.M.) Another example of taxes being thrown up a wild hog’s ass: Late yesterday evening I found a spelling text book in the front yard. Bringing it into the house, I see that it is “Spelling Goals for High School.” I doubt if the book was loaned to Colton Veazy or one of his buddies. He or they is/are not high school age.
Yesterday morning granny informed me that Kayla was sick.
Forgive, Father, for I have sinned, but, damn if I consider George W. Bush a natural-born politician! But now that I think of it, I suppose anybody that only reaches a decision after others have “ordered” her/him to think a certain way; someone that has no qualms about deceiving people: I suppose that such a person is, indeed, a “natural-born politician”!
A man that had written a biography of George W. Bush and interviewed via sattelite on THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M., P.B.S.) -a professor from Princeton University - declared such nonsense. But of course, this man wants to sell books, so what do “you” expect him to have said?
I’m still trying to figure out the purpose of the scene in “The Forsythe Saga: Series II” when “Profound Prosper” (?), the French dandy, kisses the hand of an elderly Forsythe aunt, and answers “many time, I don’t reccomend the institution” (a mis-quote?) in reply to the question by the “aunt”: “Have you been married, Mr. Profund (or Mr. Prosper)?” The emphasis given to the scene by the camera - a medium close-up - hints that it must be important!

(acerca de 1:00 P.M.) I had just made a six-dollar withdrawal from The Bank and was almost at the stop sign at the intersection of 9th Avenue and 4th Street, S.W., when a male “stuck” his head out of the driver’s window of a gold pick-up truck (a recent model). He knew me and he introduced himself as Jimmy Crowe. The Jimmy Crowe I went to high school with. I remembered the name, but damn if I could have recognized him if he hadn’t told me who he was, even though i told him I would!
I hate to “say” this, but he looks “girlish”!
Well, he offered me a ride home, and I took it, in spite of the fact that it was a special trip for him.
I explained to Jimmy that the only way I can remember the years separating the present for high school was to remember my nephew’s birthday, telling him (Jimmy) when Steve Kilbury was born. Only then do I get “age pains”!
So I lied! It was just conversation!
Jimmy Crowe is employed at Bowater, the local industry. He has been for the last thirty years. He explained the labor-management relationship out at the mill.
I pointed out where Jay Anderson, the son of another high school classmate, lived, once I was in my driveway, but still in the truck.
The ride was great, but I could have done without the reunion!
As I was walking from the library to the bank, an “elderly” male, with a bag on his back similar to Santa Claus’, met me at the same intersection. He was coming from the laundromat and was returning to the Lamp Lighter motel.
The man decided to walk with me, thinking, I suppose, that a knap sack meant that I was a “visitor” to this town, also.
The man, who “race” I never discovered or cared about, said “nigger” several times: An African American, who my “escort” said worked with him at McDonald’s or Burger King (I forget which one he said), was hoping for a ride, which never came the half-block I was with the guy, not even from this “co-worker.” The African American was Jamaican and attended the Episcopal Church on 5th Avenue, because, according to this racist, black churches didn’t want him (the Jamaican) around. The “tramp’ had gone to church with the “nigger” on Sunday. Which is why he was wondering why the Jamaican hadn’t stopped for him.
Once the “hobo” found out from my own mouth that I had two degrees, he told me he had a bachelor’s. It might have been true: He knew that a Master’s was only thirty hours more. And it isn’t unusual for a college grad to become a “bum” Just look at me!
Jimmy Crowe didn’t think thirty-six (or thirty-eight as I first said) was a bad thing.
The young female librarian, when I asked her for “Candide,” not seeing a listing for the book on the on-line catalogue, asked me the author. I knew then that I was in trouble: No “Voltaire” at all on the shelves!

(acerca de 2:00 P.M.) Apparently, Scifi thinks that it can “cut into” Comedy Central’s audience with TRIPPING THE RIFT (9:30-10:00 P.M.)! Maybe the cable network will able to capitalize on the popularity of SOUTH PARK, but only if TRIPPING is never aired directly opposite! It is an interesting animated series, but nowhere the comedic and/or satirical quality of SOUTH PARK!
CNN’s NEWS NIGHT, C-Span, and Scifi’s SCARE TACTICS each provided a few minutes of “warm-up.”
NIGHTLINE (10:35-11:05 P.M., A.B.C.) is more or less a continuation of the NEWSHOUR. For instance, the topic yesterday evening was the post-war terrorism in Iraq.
The mid-70⁰’s (F) made the walk to town this morning rather pleasant! In fact, I dreaded the hike to end at the poor excuse of a library!
There was, and is, no sun to raise the mid-70⁰’s. The Wind is still trying to co-erce Rain to “come on down!”.
We had just pulled onto Forest Hills Drive. Jimmy was telling me about the current insurance plan at Bowater: Married people pay 4%, single people pay nothing. A married person generally assumes that everybody marries, so doesn’t feel obliged to tell about the benefits to single people. Which further leads me to suspect Jimmy’s sexual orientation. Which means nothing!

(acerca de 2:37 P.M.) Finally accepting the fact that Rain won’t be “bought,” Wind created Its own Drizzle Team to parade “through” the area. Thus, it is a “pissy” day!
Monty Python is a guest on “Concert for George.” I have always wondered what the comedy of Monty Python and the Flying Circu was like. It was all the rage of the Baby Boomers and I have always felt ashamed that I was ignorant of the group.
However, from what Monty Python does on “Concert” and from clips of a video being sold, I wonder why I felt so depressed! The comedy is amateurish and undisciplined! It is no more than parlour humor, which is why frustrated Baby Boomers find the humor so appealing: They can identify with it.
George Harrison wrote and recorded a song as a tribute to murdered John Lennon, back in the early-1980’s. Portions of the lyrics are “. . . He’s the reason we exist!” in reference to a “God.” I would quote those words, only to have people laugh at me.
And “they” say that 9_% of the people believe in “God”! Yea right! Maybe 40% do: The rest only say they believe because to say otherwise would take courage that they don’t have!

(acerca de 3:24 P.M.) Speaking on George W. Bush’s term: The Kingdom of “God,” I’m sure you have heard the phrase. It is nothing more than “democracy”! The Kingdom of “God,” contrary to what you and your kind think, will never descend from the clouds until conditions are right! Namely, the meeting of two equal opposing forces. So if you want to hush the opposition, the Kingdom of “God”/”democracy” will never be established!
Democracy, as I said many times, is not a “thing” that can be imposed, but is the result of equality in opposing each other!
It’s hard to read my own writing sometime. I jotted down a note several weeks ago and the best I am able to make out it reads: Isn’t a call on a, say, __ an invasion of privacy? Isn’t it as bad as abusing nature? Maybe “you” can figure it out! I give up! But I think I was inspired by a piece in the intrusiveness of camera cell phones. Had I seen the investigation on THE MCLAUGHLIN GROUP?
A common saying is “Better late than never!” This is usually applied to learning a fact or developing a skill belatedly in life. But isn’t the “saying” hinting that resentment is the only other alternative, and that resentment is dangerous?

(acerca de 6:27 P.M.) The novel “The Haj” was very influential. “Mathematical imbalance”: I will always remember the “son” saying that to his “father” (the main character) regarding a “hired worker.”
To this end, let me try to explain the mathematical imbalance that I met with in my life (That’s not exactly what I want to say, but maybe my meaning will be clearer once “you” see what I want and need to report): My past has been a series of short “residencies” with people that, at the time, I thought of as friends. I was benefiting from her/his/their association, and this benefit far outbalanced the liabilities of the people involved.
The same can be said of my involvement with the circus.
But then I begin to lose the “advantage” of the friendships and of the circus involvement. I began to realize the “downside”: The benefits no longer blinded me to the disadvantages of the associations.

(acerca de 7:45 P.M.) When Hazel Frazier told me in the cookhouse that afternoon - Hazel Frazier was the head cook of Carson and Barnes Circus in the early-1990’s - that without animals “we” wouldn’t have a job - I had been articulating on my opposition to animals being included on a circus - it was like the southern (or northern) slave-holder justifying owning slaves by declaring “Without slaves ‘we’ wouldn’t be able to maintain ‘our’ way of life!” Which is why I totally disagree that farmers should be given special treatment, including money, to preserve a way of life!
To tell you the truth, when I first laid eyes on the “tramp,” I immediately thought of Roger Justice! Don’t ask me why, except that Roger looks “bumish”
Don’t “you” find it ironic that those who are subjected to profilling are the first to profile? Just because I had a knap sack on my back, the man was taken aback when I “left” him and went to the bank! He just knew that I was a fellow ‘bum”!
I explained to the man what might had happened at Burger King to make the African American reluctant to have given the “bum” a ride as long as he was with me: That when I quit, I took a lot of with me!
Such may be the reason that the male bicycle rider that cuts grass no longer speaks to me: His wife was a co-employee and was probably one of those people I may have caused to be fired!
Granny thought Jimmy Crowe’s gold pick-up was David’s silver pick-up! An easy mistake! Everybody makes it!

(6th, About 8:06 A.M.) I like to never have gotten to sleep last night! In fact, it was early morning, after 1:30, that I was able to enjoy the bed!
I was unaware how much Warm Air had played in my S___on with Sleep! Due to the early appearance of Spring, the cooler air-conditioning has been allowed to roam the house. However, the only way It was able to enter this room was under the door: I had closed the vent against Its entry.
One of the residents that lives on 9th Avenue south of 4th Street has a black rottweiler: You know, one of those big dogs. My short-term walking companion insisted that I arm him with a piece of ___k that was in the ditch, just in case the rottweiler attacked. Not all do, but many have been known to.
But it didn’t.
I informed the “bum” that I am not a church-goer. He had “bragged” about attending church with the “nigger.”
If only that rottweiler had got him!

(acerca de 8:45 A.M.) Maybe Sleep was too nervous to service me overnight! Maybe It was anxious to get far away from Rain, which arrived in town early this morning.
Fortunately for me Sleep ended up hiding under the sheets with me so that Rain wouldn’t find It!
When Ronald Reagan was president, I thought that there was no way that the United States __d no any worse! Ronald Reagan was the nadir of the United States presidency, or so I believed at the time.
Boy, was I wrong! Compared to George W. Bush, Ronald Reagan was a great president! Bush makes a liberal Democrat long for the days of Ronald Reagan!
Reagan will take the United States back to the Middle Ages? George W. Bush is taking this country further back than that even!
One would think, and hope, that a person becomes president of the United States that is more damaging to the country than George W. Bush! But don’t count on it! That’s what was thought of Ronald Reagan! S/he doesn’t necessarily have to be a Republican: It could happen that a Democrat could go “sour”! That’s why this A.B.B. - Anybody But Bush - campaign by the Democrats could backfire! Not that John Kerry is anywhere as bad as Bush, but one doesn’t want A.B.B.: One wants A..T.I.B. (Anybody that is better than Bush)!
Of course, even Fatboy the cat would be better than George W. Bush, but someone like, say, Anita Matlow wouldn’t!

(acerca de 9:42 A.M.) Both socialism and democracy are governments “of the people, by the people,for the people.” Can anyone tell me what distinguishes the two?
Very good, Suzi! It’s the treatment of minorities. In both socialism and democracy the majority rules. But of the two, only democracy cares about the minority rights. In fact, that is what a constitution is for.
Howard Dean stated that one can tell the status of a political system by how women are treated. He is absolutely correct; but he didn’t go far enough. 0ne can tell the status of a political system by how all minorities are treated!
Just because a person is “electable” doesn’t mean that s/he should be in the White House! George W. Bush was probably more “electable” than Al Gore, but damn if he is more “presidential”!
Just because a person is Regular Army and a professional soldier doesn’t mean that the person is a better “warrior” than a person in the National Guard! It’s the same as with a professional actor versus an amateur actor: The latter may be much more “talented” than the former! In fact, in most cases that is the case!
According to what Jimmy Crowe said yesterday, “everybody” else has gotten fat, hinting I haven’t.
Why all the fuss about business interest controlling the United States? Surely “you” don’t think that is a recent phenomenon! How do you think this country was formed back in 1779? Don’t tell me you buy this “experiment in democracy” crap? If you do and continue to think this way, no wonder corporations are able to just slip in and “govern” un-natural

(acerca de 11:13 A.M.) You could be right, Roy Moore: The constitution of the state of Alabama may have “forced” you to publically acknowledge “God.” But what does that have to do with the Ten Commandments in the lobby of the state Judicial Building? Since when is a “graven image” a tribute to “God,” when one of the commandments expressly forbids such?
Besides, the Ten Commandments is how Roy Moore publically recognizes “God”, not how Phillip Wilson does! Re-cycling and environmental concerns are just as “God-able” as the Ten Commandments, if not more so!
Using math, one can prove that a colony becomes independent for commercial reasons. I have yet to work out the formula, but by calculating the colonial status-to independent nation of modern times, one can prove that the American colonies went through the same transition!
The more “balance” the opposite sides are, the more “democracy,” or whatever form of political system is deemed the best, there is.
Of course “democracy” is not as it use to be! There are much more people to cover, much more minorities, much more parts that make-up the machinery of “democracy”! Just as a computer has more components than a typewriter, which in turn has many more parts than hand-written, “democracy,” as it constantly evolves, adds layer after layer to the late-18th century “democracy”! As it should!
One cannot praise technological progress while bemoaning the alteration of the country! The two - technological advances and political evolution - go hand-in-hand!
THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M., P.B.S.) is not to be held responsible for my political theory. As with all the media, the NEWSHOUR is too unofficially tied to the federal government. As is also WASHINGTON WEEk (7-7:23 P.M., P.B.S.).
MONK (9-10:00 P.M., U.S.A.), however, may no be. Whether it is or not, though, I enjoy the program.
NIGHTLINE? I really don’t care about the Martha Stewart conviction. So between 10:35 and 11:00, I watched the first part of THE LATE SHOW WITH DAVID LETTERMAN (C.B.S.), relying on C-Span before and during commercial “breaks.”
Even in the chaos of the universe there is order. Chaotic order? Or is that an oxymoron?

(acerca de 1:45 P.M.) Yesterday I was contacted via telephone by a man from Nelnet, my student loan holder. He wanted to know why I was late with an installment.
My economic hardship deferment has expired. That was a quick year, or however long the deferment last! I will be given another one.
I was asked a question: Do I intend to pay back my loan? Now what dumb shit would say “no” even if s/he has no intention of doing such
I answered the telephone on the third “ring.” While I was talking to the man, granny decided it was time to respond to the telephone. I couldn’t get her to give up her quest!
Fortunately Joyce, at that moment, arrived home. She was able to separate granny from the telephone so that I could do my business.
As irksome as granny’s interference was, it may have helped: My student loan may have been “extended” because of the dysfunctional family status!
Rain prevented Spring from blossoming all the way, which is why I think Rain may have been under contract to Winter which, after all, has two more weeks on Its __se of the year! The wind __ damp and coolish, holding the air at the lower-70⁰’s (F).
I bagged three bags of leaves and mu_ earlier today, gathering them in the gutter. Phoebus had the hegemony then, but It is losing it to Overcast, although, as of this “of,” Yellow is peeking in the window.
As a young man, my clown “character” was an old man, a satire on the “age brings wisdom” saying. If ever I return to active clowning, I will do the Young Man as a satire on - that I have yet to figure out. But this is only fair and mathematically correct!

(acerca de 4:23 P.M.) I “felt” Kayla’ presense all the while I was in bed! There existed a mathematically imbalance in the house!
Joyce brought Kayla home with her around 1:30. I didn’t feel like getting out of bed, even though something told me that Kayla was in the house.
It was about twenty minutes until I decided to see for myself: The strain was becoming unbearable! It was as if Kayla was on the si_king end of a ship and the tilt from being on the high part, thus making the deck slowly approaching 45⁰!
My sensation was right! Kayla was lying on the couch! She didn’t stay long: Leslie came for the still-ill child.
What is generally labelled “God” is nothing but mathematics at work on the universe. And it can be proven: Mathematically, of course!

(7th, About 7:21 A.M.) When I went out to the Family Room around 5:45 yesterday evening, David was there. He had only arrived about ten minutes prior.
Joyce and granny were gone to get a pizza.
I soon found out that, far from just a weekend visit, David would be here until next Friday: The University of Mississippi is having its Spring Break.
At the kitchen table, Joyce announced that Willa Cather, in one of her novels, states “Buffalo peas”: To bring “you” up to date, more than fifteen years ago, I was with David in his room at the house (601?) on 5th Avenue, S.W., across from granny’s former house. I had called the deli at Winn Dixie. It was late afternoon. With my hearing loss, I thought the lady had said, “buffalo peas” instead of purple-hull peas (?), upon asking her the menu.
Since that time, “buffalo peas” have been a source of family humor. I doubt if Willa Cather will change that!
In referring to the “Executive Producer” of the Media Center at Old Miss - David works there - David claimed that the female holding the position is pay for essentially doing nothing. He said he had learned what such a position is called from the G.R.E.: When I said the word was “sinecure,” he ignored me. He was looking left at his Mother.
I had mistakenly called the the job that one is paid for doing nothing “cynosure.” But I did change to the correct term, and if David is too much of a profiler to accept my “authority,” I really don’t care! He will suffer from it, not me!
Speaking of profilling: Joyce stated that she would vote for George W. Bush if John Kerry chose the Rev. Al Sharpton as his running mate. I have a feeling this is racism, although there’s a chance that Joyce is opposed to Rev. Sharpton’s liberal viewpoint.
There is no more racism, huh? Yea, right!

(acerca de 8:07 A.M.) Leslie is always labelling David as inmature, even to his face. Which is ironic: She is married to a very inmature man. Number one, “Islam-a-phobia” is a sign of inmaturity. And secondly, what he did yesterday evening showed just what kind of a sorry son of a bitch he is: He and Leslie came for Kayla, who has come over around 6:30 to visit with David (it was after 8:30 when the parents came). Handing Joyce a piece of paper, he stated that he would win the middle prize if he could come up with a “catchy” caption for the picture, or some such nonsense. He showed the clipping to David.
Bill ignored me, as if I wasn’t present!
It’s more than a religious “hatred”: A few weeks ago when I told Bill that the stock market is best over the long run with high points and low points, but not eratic ups and downs!
But I use to wonder why religion in Northern Ireland could be the cause of warfare. However, if religion is creating a riff between Leslie and me, between Linda and me, etc, then I can well understand what organized religion can do on a large scale!
Please don’t think that I am hurt because an asshole such as Bill Reeves shuns me! Only that I think Kayla would be better off without him!
From hints I overheard yesterday evening, I think Kayla was over here a short while Friday evening. I am never summons: Granny and Joyce want to believe that I am asleep most of the time that I am in my room!
I thought I “checked” the Family Room enough Friday evening, but apparently not enough!

(acerca de 8:40 A.M.) When I “retired” to my room around 9:25 yesterday evening, I eventually watched C-Span’s airing of a portion of Harry Blacknum’s oral history of his “tenure” on the United States Supreme Court, taped in December of 1995, not long before he retired. I had seen other excerpts on the NEWSHOUR and WASHINGTON WEEK.
It was around 10:0_ when I disconnected from C-Span.
In discussing possible vice presidential candidates for John Kerry (who David doesn’t really like), I named Richard Gephardt, explaining as I had heard it explained that Gephardt being from Missouri, the Democrats may try for this swing state in order that Bush won’t attrack it.
In spite of David Letterman and David Baxley, I doubt if the running mate will be Hillary Clinton. But it could well be Max Cleveland, the amputee Vietnam War veteran and former senator from Georgia. If so, it will be the first paraplegic as a potential vice president. Although I had to tell David who Max Cleveland was, so maybe Kerry needs a running mate better know than Max Cleveland!
In his re-election campaign, George W. Bush is claiming that the attacks on September 11, 2001, were the first strikes in a war. I can well understand why the United States went to war in Afghanistan. But why Iraq? What does Iraq have to do with 9/11?

(acerca de 9:30 A.M.) You know what started this pro-same-sex marriage “craze,” don’t you? It was the case in Texas where the police broke into a “gay” couple’s house and arrested them for having sex in the privacy of the couple’s own home! So homophobes have only themselves to blame for homosexuality becoming more public than ever before! And I am sure that the hysteria is due partly to the realization that if the police hadn’t done what it did in Texas, none of this might not be happening now!
Was it yesterday or Friday evening? Damn Time! Well, anyway, Joyce whined about what granny had done. But I really don’t want to hear it: Nothing granny does surprises me anymore, and I really don’t care about the woman. But, as David said last December, Joyce is so much like granny, and encourages granny to behave as she (granny) does. In fact, Joyce probably intentionally provokes granny, only to criticize her to her back!


George W. Bush’s insistence on using September 11, 2001, for political gain my very well blow up in his face: Voters will be more suspicious of his pre-9/11 knowledge!
Of course the Bush daughters want their father re-elected: It will be of tremendous value in increasing their “stock” for their own career! I doubt if either really cares if her father wins a second term or not: Except for what’s in it for her!

(acerca de 1:20 P.M.) Leslie told me herself times that she must work twenty hours at C.A.C.C. to keep her benefits.
Joyce told me a few months back that part-time C.A.C.C. staff are not given benefits. I had asked her about my chances for being “rewarded” with benefits. (continued)




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