the secrets of an average teen
2018-11-16 01:24:04 (UTC)

whoever reads this

Dear whoever finds this,
Right now, I'm not okay. I've been feeling so down and sad and suicidal lately. I feel like I'm trapped and no one is coming get me. Why does it have to be me? Our of all people, I just want to know why I have to be one of the people that suffer from this. I've been depressed before, but this time its worse. The only way I can actually get away from this is when I'm with miranda or high.

I lost myself the most this year, and no one even noticed. I feel like I became so depressed and mentally ill that it actually messed up EVERYTHING in my body. I gained 15 pounds, like wtf?! I worked so hard to lose it, and I just gained it all back. I don't need this kind of negativity shit in my life. I'm just looking for something to keep me going you know? Other than Mandy, I feel like I need something else to live for. I need some type of motivation to keep going. How do I do that?
Ugh. Please take me out of my misery.