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2018-11-10 09:42:25 (UTC)

Let's see if it works...

lol, this is crazy hehe. i have never been in such type of situation before or if i was, i was just an ignorant slob that didn't care. I think I'm in love, maybe. It has been like a month since the college has started. There's this girl in my class, she's nuts ! lol . That's just my opinion... i don't really acclaim that but whatever... I don't know what's up with this fucked up mind is attracted to but I can't resist the feeling of just being with her. lol I have been in a relationship before, a small one, a really small one...3 months lol.
but this is just different. idk what am i gonna do there are 4.5 years and I really want her to be with me, actually i want me to be with her in all situations... i need her to be with me the rest of my life. I'm so insecure and depressed, i don't have anyone to talk to, i keep goofing around, atleast i know it'll be hard for me, i am not the super rich guy that's gonna just give her what she wants, i'll have to earn her trust but damn it i'm not normal, i have so many obstacles, i need to reduce some fat first, i need to study good, i need to get her away from those creeps in the class, i need to give her some time.... i already fucked one time up, she was super friendly to me and i fell in love with her, she realized it and is trying to have some distance but instead of "not-felling" i'm falling more and more for her... but moreover i want her happy, i want her to be good, i guess i'll just write my feelings down be less crazy around her... maybe this will work out for one diary out....