Do Not Disturb

2018-11-07 06:57:44 (UTC)


Dear journal,

Warning: Diabeities, Food, Being Overweight

Can you get diabeties from eating to much candy or anything sugary ???

Of coarse you can. Lately I've been craving for chocolate ever since Halloween came around I've been wanting more. But I want know how to not eat as much or nothing at all sweets. It's another problem I have besides overeating .

I love food to much. I don't even remember the last time I checked my weight. But if, I weigh 175 or more that much I'm gonna cry and feel sorry for myself like I always do when checking my weight.

Whenever I look in the mirror its like my body is bigger than, my head.

It's been awhile. The last time I weight myself was a 175. I'm fucking obese. I may not look fat but I feel fat. I have a pug and my arms are flabby and I have stretch marks. At least my boyfriend loves me for who I am. I hope. How can I love myself ??? I don't know how to love myself. But that's just sad. I wanna lose weight. But everytime I say I do. I don't.

Overall, I'm just dissapointed. Not only for my boyfriend who has been dealing with my overweight annoying ass but for myself.

I suppose to weight at least 110 and that I don't. I also have an online food diary to keep track of what I'm eating and what calories are in them everyday. All of the food I eat is unhealthy. My whole life is unhealthy.

Write more as soon as possible


The Forgotten One

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