Scream Above the Sounds
The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows
No mystery with this entry name, sadly. I would always have liked to reserve this name in case I planned on spilling out some deep, dark secrets, but I don't have any. I'm too boring. This entry name is one of my favourite songs from a band called Brand New. I'll leave the link here :-
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MB6ESvoBwxI Brand New - The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows
I managed to get quite a bit of work done today. In hindsight, I really should have blitzed it all on the weekend before half term. I could have sworn I told myself that's what I was going to do, oops. There isn't a great deal to do in fairness. I had already finished my assignment on reflection. We had to write about our first days at the college and things like that, it was pretty easy. The Social Science one is annoying as hell. I can't wait until we move onto another subject. Talking and listening about the Welfare State of Britain and researching the 'Poor Law' has completely fried my brain. I can't take much more of it.
We have a Facebook group of everybody who is in our class. People were talking earlier about what needs to be done for which class etc. People haven't done anything, literally nothing. They are boycotting it and are under the impression if nobody takes anything in, they'll have no choice but to give people extensions. I can't see that happening, they'll just end up marking them down as 'Late's and maybe that will have a knock-on effect to their grade/score or something like that. Either way, it sounds like a dumb idea.
My mum reminded me earlier that it's my sisters birthday on Thursday. Mine and my sisters relationship isn't good. There just isn't anything there. We were close-ish growing up, I guess most siblings are. We always did the same stuff. Either way, my mum was implying for me to buy her stuff. I haven't really got the money to and even if I did, I wouldn't. I know that sounds shitty but I can remember buying her stuff for Christmas years ago and all she got me was a candle, hahaha. Lesson learned there. I dunno, we care about each other, i'm sure. We probably only say about 50-60 year words to each other a year though, it is what it is. My mum said "What's going to happen when me and your father die?", I just responded "Nothing probably". It isn't going to bring us closer or make things any better. This is how it is, how it always will be. I need to try and sleep early tonight. I've had a lot of late nights during the half term and I need to get myself back on track now ready for the grind until Christmas.
I think I'm probably going to consider dating next year. I want to change a few things about my life first though before I consider anything like it. I'd like to lose a bit of weight and I need to get myself a new job. Living with my parents is just something that has to be right now. I'll probably still be living with them when I'm 29 or maybe even 30. That's pretty pathetic. I'm hoping by the time I'm 30, I'll actually be at a University. Either here in the city or hopefully somewhere else. I dunno, I feel like an embarrassment and there is no way I could potentially have something with somebody whilst I'm currently this way.
That's all from me, tonight.