Do Not Disturb

2018-11-05 20:59:04 (UTC)

I don't know anymore

Dear journal,


Why do I always do this to myself ???

He keeps telling me that he loves me. But I have a boyfriend. He wants me to not be with my boyfriend and be with him instead. And he's mad at me because of it. And now he's making me feel bad because of it. I told him I love him.

Was that a big mistake ???

I have a boyfriend. I suppose to love my boyfriend.

Do I love my boyfriend???

Of coarse I do.

Do I???


I'm so confused about my feelings. I don't even deserve to be in a relationship. It would be better of if, I was single. But I don't wanna be single. I guess that's the only reason why I'm with my boyfriend after my last one dumped me over something that I did. And that I deserve it. I do love my boyfriend. We laugh a lot together. We don't see each other everyday but we see each other as often.

Me and Brian text each other. He tells me he loves me calls me beautiful but those are only words. Right??? I never told him I love him back. I honestly don't know what to do. I'm always stuck in this situation. Now he thinks that I'm playing games with him. And I'm not. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Write more as soon as possible


The Forgotten One

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