marielmia

Mariel is MIA
2018-10-26 05:01:04 (UTC)

Highs, lows and choices...

This weekend will be full of contradictions for me. I am flying out to see my lover. I am am sure we greet each other, show affection and do the things that lovers who have been without each other's company for a month do. I want to feel his skin on mine, feel his warmth. I want to dissolve in him. I want him to drink of my body and to satisfy himself, affirming us. Yet, as I have said before, this relationship is missing something and that my one true need above all others, to have a family, cannot be reached with this loving and powerful man. He will take me to the heights and depths this weekend, as he always does. And i will show him my love and deference in return. But we both know there are limits on us. He has told me his and i, while firm in my need for family, am undecided, does this part of me outweigh what we have together or do i need to end it. I know he will bless me either way. Up until now, i keep the status quo. I love the heights he brings me to and i am that person who desires and even revels in those depths. There will be tears on the plane Sunday night. I'm just not sure of the reason right now. XOXO




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