Scream Above the Sounds
All Work and No Play
All work and no play makes Edd a dull boy.
It's great to have my time back on the weekends but it just feels like a drag right now. I feel like I'm powering through the week and doing all these assignments for college and then the weekend hits and...nothing. Don't get me wrong, it's not a terrible thing. It's nice to be able to chill and just laze about the house, but I feel like I'm just watching the clock until I can go to sleep again. Nothing is happening. It's great to be watching the football again. It just feels very repetitive and once it's over, what now? It's 8:56pm as I write this and I honestly have nothing else planned. I'm going to watch the UFC later tonight but that's a few hours away yet. I honestly may as well just have a nap in the meantime. Naps are always welcome.
I woke up at 10am this morning and I watched WWE's "Super Show Down" which was a pay-per-view event that was being held in Melbourne, Australia. I can't tell you how refreshing it was to actually watch wrestling at a decent time here in the UK. Usually watching WWE shows or pay-per-view's would mean having to stay up until 4am. It was a welcome change but really weird to watch it roundabout that time. I mean, I could watch it whenever I want really but I like to watch things live, if I can. After WWE, I was just keeping tabs on the football and here I am now. I've been editing parts of my English coursework and I've almost finished that, so maybe I'll put that in my next entry, I'll see how I get on with it.
Tomorrow I think I'm seeing my friend. The one who I've mentioned that I think I'm beginning to develop deep feelings for. She won't be none the wiser and I don't plan on saying anything to her. I think we're both damaged goods, neither of us are in a place to welcome anything like that right now. I was in a long term relationship and she was seeing somebody for several months before it broke down. We do have a great time together though, and she makes me laugh like nobody else. I just don't think she sees anything more than friendship in me, which is fine. I know that I don't feel ready for a relationship anyway and I would be too worried about messing it up and losing one of my best friends. I've mentioned that I have a "self-destruct" button in the back of my head. Whenever something is going good and I genuinely feel happy, I'll press that button, every damn time. I'm an idiot. So yeah, I think we're going out tomorrow for food and then copious amounts of alcohol I would imagine. It gets me out of the house and I do really enjoy being around her. Besides that, it'll be more football in the day. Arsenal are playing Fulham so I'll tune into that first and then see where the day takes me.
Now would be a perfect time to be in a gym and actually training and working towards something. Nights like these when I've got nothing going on and I could be bettering myself and doing something productive. We have a PureGym which is open 24 hours which I think would be ideal for me. If I got comfortable in the gym and knew what I was doing, I would probably spend most of my free time there. I'm going to have to speak to somebody and get the ball rolling because otherwise I'M going to be the one that's rolling. I don't want to get fat. It's always good to feel productive. Look good, feel good, all that shit. I guess I'm just rambling at this point. I'm going to finish my Social Science assignment and then maybe I'll have a nap before UFC.
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