Scream Above the Sounds
2018-09-24 09:41:06 (UTC)

Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything

Yes, I'm a massive Bruno Mars fan! I was so tired when I finally got into bed last night yet here I am...9:41am and I'm already awake when I don't need to be. I hate this.

Monday is a "Study Day", which basically means a free day. They expect you to study/revise/catch up on coursework etc but nobody does that. I've already finished everything ready for this week anyway but that's what the day is for. It's a free day. I'm going to laze around in my lounge pants and play some video games. It's a shame the study day wasn't a Friday. If it was, I could have stayed in my job. It's really hitting me how careful I need to be with my money right now. I need to sort my CV out and start looking for a weekend job in the day. I thought I would enjoy having the weekends back to myself, and I do. It's been great to watch the football again and I've even spent time with some of my friends. It's been so out of place and my life hasn't felt like this for eons. Having said that, I do need money coming in. I'm not very extravagant or even like to live that leisurely but it's still comfortable to know I can buy something and it not be an issue.

I wanted to go and get my haircut today but I feel so tired. I feel after I've done this entry I may try and sleep a little more. I don't feel like doing anything today. It's going to be the ultimate lazy day. I'm just going to blast some music and chill. I'm looking forward to seeing my English teacher tomorrow. I hope he enjoys my assignment and understood why I wrote it. I can't remember if I mentioned it in detail here but, we had to write about somebody we admired, somebody we disliked or a place we had fond memories of. You know me, ultimate edgelord. I obviously wrote about disliking myself. Not in a full on "I hate myself" rant though. It was supposed to come across as quite inspiring and hopeful that I could change, find myself and break free from the weights and shackles of depression. I would post it in here but it's a mix of stuff I have mentioned in previous entries.

After I finish college tomorrow I'm going to a friends house for the rest of the night. I'm looking forward to seeing him and our two other friends. It's been a while since we all just chilled out and made time for each other. My friend who has organised it is usually away in a different country working or he is joint to the hip with his girlfriend. I can't remember the last time me and him have done something, just us. She is always there. She is quite clingy and obsessive. I mean, she reads our Facebook conversations. That says it all, right? Anyway, she is going away somewhere so he has decided to organise a bit of a games night. I've had a look around the house to try and find the stuff we need. Gamecube pads etc. We're going to be playing Smash Bros Melee, Mario Kart Double Dash. Things like that. Games we used to play when we were in high school. I think he's actually emulated Goldeneye from the Nintendo 64 too. It should be fun. It's just nice to get out of the house. I imagine alcohol and a domino's pizza will find their way into tomorrow nights plans too.

I think that's it from me today. Have a good day.


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