JustAGirl

The break up
2018-09-21 04:52:42 (UTC)

Drowning

Missing you come in waves and tonight I’m drowning.

I hate feeling like this...


I hate feel like I feel more then most people do... like with my whole being ...


I can’t explain it ...

Today sucked... like it really sucked


My mom lost her job, and of course with that means a total relapse...


And I’m stuck just cleaning up all the fucking messes ...

I’m so fucking numb ...


And all I can think is this wasn’t what we planned ... we were supposed to start having babies this year ...


And of course you posted a stupid picture which I didn’t even mean to see ...


And there was every girl past and present in front of my face ..


And i don’t think anyone can fully understand how I feel...


It’s like this...


My body was filled to the top with how much I loved you...

So much so if spilled out in my laughter or my touch ...

But now...


Now it feels like I’ve been pulled apart in two pieces....

The part that loves you on one side
And the part I never thought would exist ...

The part that hates you....


And no one can fully understand what it’s like to love someone with every part of your soul and now to absolutely fucking hate them ...


And that’s what’s so hard for me




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