Do Not Disturb

2018-09-03 21:32:45 (UTC)

All In My Head

Dear journal,

Weight : 175.6 lbs

I can't stop thinking about him. I'm suppose to be thinking about my boyfriend not... Him. Ever since what went down the last time we texted he has been all I think about lately. I can't help but too. I have feelings for him but I also have a boyfriend.

Will he wait for me when or if, me and my boyfriend break up ? What if he does? Will that mean anything ?


Who am I to kid ???

I doubt it since, I lied to him. He's only going to talk to me unless I'm single. He's white. Blue eyes. Loves to work out. I don't mind dating a white guy. But you know I have a boyfriend. He's making me choose. I don't know what to do.

Anyways, I got to see my boyfriend this weekend. We kissed. Its cute he doesn't know how to kiss. I asked to check his phone. I know that's a bad thing to do. But guys hide. And I'm not saying that I don't hide anything. Well, not anymore.

But its like I can't just stop thinking about him. Danny. It's eating me alive. I know what I did was wrong and that's the reason of us not talking. Well, he's not talking to me.... And again only and only if, I'm single.

He also told me that he wasn't lying about "loving" me. I don't know if, I should believe him or not. I do like him. A LOT.

I know I say that I should stay single. I'm so confused in the head.

Me and my boyfriend been together for now 3 months. I know I'm off topic.

Overall, had a great Labor Day weeoend. A crazy one.

I'm just ready to go home and get in the bed.

P.S. I needed this... Writing. I always feel better when I do.

Write more as soon as possible


The Forgotten One

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