Do Not Disturb

2018-08-22 21:03:24 (UTC)

Still Alive And Doing Well ( Kind Of)

Dear journal,

So, as you may know I just recently started college that is to why I'm not able to write as much as I use to even though its been only 3 days.

I have a 5:30 PM class. Math that is ( which is my favorite subject btw). And the greatest thing about it is that all the things we'll be learning will be online. So... Yay for that.

You remember Danny ... Right???

Well, I probably haven't mentioned him in this diary/ journal but I am now.

He likes me.... Yep and I may have sort of have feelings for him too. Yes... He's white. I'm into white guys as well...

What's the problem ( if you care to ask) ???

Well, I'm glad You ask. I have a boyfriend. And he wants me to break up with him to be with you know him.

It was a very wrong decision to text him.

Now you know one of the reasons of me being a very confused person.

Also I saw this really cute six foot/ feet guy in my English class yesterday. Yes... Light skin... Red head what ever you like to call it.

Maybe I should've just stayed single in the first place. Instead of rushing into yet another relationship. And to just put it in God's hands.

You know to keep my options open.

Me and my boyfriend only been together for a month and we have NOTHING in common. I already and maybe still don't don't trust him.


What to do??? What to do???

And on the plus side my period still haven't decided to come on and no I'm not pregnant... At least I think... Well, I haven't had sex yet ever since my last relationship with my ex and since I'm taking the pills and all ( birth control pills).

I have 2 projects in my development reading class that I have not yet even started on. A book report and a 2 magazine article. Yes already.

I need to stop putting my focus so much into boys and focus on what's really important... school and God as well. I don't even have a job yet. I need to get myself together before I do anything else and quick fast in a hurry.

I'm not really suppose to eat sweets because of the toothache I'm currently having but I can't resist. Me need sweets.

I already have a hole on the right side of my teeth. The side where they've been working on ever since well.... Last year. It needs refilling.

So, many thoughts.

So, many things to say.

My brother is being his usual loud, obnoxious 12 year old self ect... ECT...

Nothing has changed.

Fuck it!!!!

I'm eating this chocolate cupcake and w/ icing and filling on the inside. No wonder I feel fat and disgusted.

Write more as soon as possible


The Forgotten One

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