suh-mone

in my 20's
2018-08-16 00:00:00 (UTC)

i was gonna go gay, but then you came along

so yesterday i got fucked. well fucked isnt the word I would personally use. more like 'making love with someone who thinks we're just fucking'. honestly i dont even know, dont quote me!

ricky, or rick as he likes to be called, is my fantasy. he's tall, dark chocolate skin, perfect smile, smokes weed (which is a plus), educated, handsome, funny, mysterious, quirky (like me). pretty much everything ive been asking out of a person this summer. long story long, i went to high school with ricky back in 2014. we had one class together, CHEMISTRY, but literally we had chemistry class together. i had a crush on him back then and i didnt think he really even fucked with me like that. he was super quiet and mysterious, braces, not really my thing but i was still into him. after high school i never spoke to him or about him, he kinda just disappeared from my mind...UNTIL, my good friend shayla told me she was his first kiss, the summer after senior year. i just remember being jealous cus i had a thing for him back in the day. but like why am i even mad when i didnt even try to reach out to him or anything u ask. i dont know i just was, it was a gut reaction. so fast forward to july 4th, 2018. all my girlfriends and i are chilling at my besties pool and somehow ricky got brought up. i once again felt jealous about shayla being his first kiss...but luckly my shot would soon come.
that night i get home super late and start swiping through tinder out of boredum. so im swiping and swiping away and i see ricky come up. now my rule of thumb is to swipe right to anyone i know just to make things awkward if we match, but i REALLY did want to match with ricky.
so i take a deep breath and a leap of faith and swipe right. TADAAA!! WE MATCHED!

we start talking, and he asks me for my number (good sign). conversation is going smoothly and we pick a day and time to chill! he comes over in the morning around 11AM to smoke (my favorite activity). He comes over, i give hima huge hug at the door, since it is the first time i'm seeing him since high school. we end up having this amazing smoke sesh. we smoked, talked, listened to music, laughed, all the good stuff...except kiss. i wasnt mad about it though. after he leaves the butterflies are still in my stomach, and i can't stop smiling. i just had the best time with this really amazing guy, long overdue. i text him later that night saying "hey, had a really good time today with you. hopefully we can chill again soon." i usually dont text things like that but i didnt want there to be a doubt in his mind that i was interested in him. a day goes by...three days go by and nothing, no response. im sooo fucking confused because i had just had one of the best days in my whole summer and homeboy didnt even feel the need to text back. but you know what he would do? like all my pics and posts on IG !! i hate when people do that. its like how can you ignore texts but then be all up on social media, like i know you saw the texts bro! i was just confused and wasnt sure if i had done soemthing wrong or not. i got advice from my friends about it and was still unsure why he went ghost on me. fast forward to yesterday.

so im in the city doing music with a friend, pheebs, til really late, like 3am. im scrolling through IG stories and see ricky's. it s a picture of him super fucking sweaty, like DRIPPINGGGGG! (drip drip) so i comment on the story and say "so hot", in more ways then one. he replys saying thanks and i get an idea. im stuck in NYC at 3am with Pheebs and trains arent running regularly so let me ask ricky if he would pick me up. now just for context ricky lives in suffolk county which is about 50minutes to an hour away from where i am, AND ITS 4AM now! So i ask him and to my surprise homeboy is "down for the adventure" as he put it. so an hour later hes there to pick us up. we drop off Pheebs and hed to my house to smoke. this is where things get alittle hotter than expected.

we smoke, we talk, we listen to music, blah blah blah...then i just go "YO RICKY WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU LAST TIME". hes like "what do you mean", i said " i mean when you ghosted me. what was that about? i had a really good time and i thought you did too" "oh no, im just a bad communicator and i was going through some stuff, plus i just got out of a relationship." i respond with " well yeah, i mean thanks for clearing it up but i think you could have been better at communicating that before" "yeah, i know" he says. so now that the air is clear i can see clearly now, and his fine ass is all i can see, laying there on my bed looking like a WHOLE ASSS MAN, perfect teeth, and the sexiest voice that i kinda got wet just sitting in his presence. i jokingly tell him about how i was jealous of Shayla being his first kiss. he asks me if i wanted to kiss him back then. i said " no, but i was just jealous when i heard it, like of ALL people, my friend!" he goes " do you wanna kiss?" I say yes and we kiss...like 2 tiny ass pecks and im dissappointed to say the least!!!

so then he grabs my face and kisses me again but this time i melt. hes lips were so soft, and big. it filled my body. i got turned on so much in that moment i knew it was a wrap from there. then one things leads to another and there we are fucking, me riding him and enjoying every inch of his perfect dick inside me. i was amazing to say the least but unfourtnately short lived, cus he came in like 2 minutes. then to my surprised he asked if i was down for round two. he pins me up against the wall and fucks me from behind. i start shaking cus it felt so good. i didnt want him to stop. i wanted more. and more and more of him. it was perfect. like literally perfect. THE BEST SEX OF MY LIFE!!! not because he was pulling out all the stops or because he was really working it, but because every piece of me was attract to all of him. if felt right, it felt like it was meant to happen.

we smoked again after and then parted ways cus he had work and neither of us had slept all night. but lets just say, your girl is SPRUNG! i like this man so much and i just hope im not falling too far too fast, cus i really dont wanna get hurt.




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