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Scream Above the Sounds
2018-08-08 12:52:57 (UTC)

Jaded

Despite sleeping pretty well in the last two days, I feel so tired. I feel really snappy and short fused today. I don't know what's wrong with me. Hopefully it fades soon.


I was supposed to meet up with somebody today for a bit of a catch up but I just don't feel in a good enough mood for it, so I think I'm going to knock it on the head. I received an e-mail from my college today about when I begin. It's on September 4th, which is a Tuesday. The good news is, that's only the induction so I only have to go in once that week. I haven't had anything in regards to my timetable so I guess all will be revealed on the day. Fingers crossed I don't have to study on a Friday!


Now that I'm back from Sweden and my main focus will be on my studying. Along with raiding on WoW like the sad pathetic nerd I am, I can also finally start sorting my bedroom out and arranging things how I want them to be, how they used to be. I need to buy a bigger TV bracket for a start. When me and my ex moved in together last year, my Dad gave us a 47" TV. When we broke up, we brought it home with us and my Dad said that when I eventually got my room back, I could use it again. So I need to take a look at that in the next few days. I also need to buy a new double bed because I gave my one to my sister when she moved in with her boyfriend. Aside from that, I just need to put all my wall art up and then I'll truly feel at home again.


My moods are slowly improving. A week in Sweden has definitely helped. I would love to do it again next year or maybe a different location. I'm not a big traveller and being at the airport alone had me really nervous in the beginning. I'm glad I did it though. It was nice to be surrounded by people who know you better than anybody. I still find it crazy and really powerful, how some people can care about you and be a million miles away than the ones who you've known your whole life and barely say a word to you, they live just down the road..I can't fathom that. I wouldn't really change it though. I've been playing online games since about 2003 or 2004 and some of the people that I met then, I'm still close with now. I probably will be for the rest of my life. People will make jabs and laugh at people who play games online and "waste their lives" or whatever. Some people are quite ignorant. If you aren't down the pub or watching TV then you're abnormal, there's something wrong with you. It's a load of shit.


Time you enjoy wasting, was not wasted. I think John Lennon said that.


Edd





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