Habibullo-Eugene Kiselev
A Synopsis of my Life
March 9th, 2018, Friday, 11:04:30 p.m.
Yekaterinburg, Russia. GMT 05:00
This day was more or less quiet in terms of my mood and state of mind. I was not agitated; the panic thoughts did not happen to me either. I have made one more translation of the piece of metadata tonight.
At about 09:20 p.m., I gave a phone call to Marina Kamenskaya. I have reached her for now! We have had a long and meaningful conversation. I wished her a happy International Women’s Day. We talked about literature, mysticism etc. She told me about a certain Sandra Moksha (Alexander Shmakov) (Russian: Сандра Мокша (Александр Шмаков)), a poet and mystic from Yekaterinburg, who once left his home in 1996. He was found dead in a woodland park six months later. He was a Hindu mystic. This made him adopt a Hindu pseudonym.
So, I told Marina that I had changed my religion three times and that I had left the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. She called the Mormons “a subversive act”; I said it was nothing but a successful business project. Also, Marina tried to say nasty things about Jews, that they are Nazis, misanthropists, that they hate the Slavs and other nations… I am convinced this is a far-fetched exaggeration.
An artist and mystic poet, Nicholas Roerich (born October 9th, 1874 Saint Petersburg, Russian Empire – died December 13th, 1947 (aged 73) Naggar, Himachal Pradesh, India) was one of the first famous people whose works and ideas had prompted Marina to begin to study mysticism. She told me she had studied his Agni-yoga, she also read mystic poetry written by this man. I have also discovered Marina Kamenskaya knew about George Gurdjieff and his works on philosophy of mysticism. Oh, yes… Earlier, I told her about Quirinus Kuhlmann (February 25th, 1651 – October 4th, 1689), a German Baroque poet and mystic, who was burned alive in Moscow. She told me she had studied his works and biography and was delighted with his life, ideas and poetry. Marina said she had read that according to Kuhlmann’s words, the two angels had commanded him to go to Russia. “What sort of angels were they?” – She asked. Obviously, this is a mystery.
Marina Kamenskaya briefly told me about her relatives, that she was of a Ukrainian descent and that her maiden name was Polurenko. She communicated to me, that her late husband was 49, when she met him; Marina was only 22 in those days. Marina and her husband met each other even before their acquaintance. I do not quite understand what Marina meant by this, I just suppose they had known each other by sight prior to their acquaintance in person. She told me she had met her husband in a store, where Marina had worked. Later, he invited her to his small communal flat; they drank dry wine and listened to the classical music there. Marina lived on a crossroads of Malysheva Street and Khokhryakova Street in her parents’ apartment in those days. Marina’s late husband was a veteran of the Great Patriotic War; he was a commander of a trench mortar platoon. He told Marina a great deal about his ancestors, that they had been dispossessed as the kulaks after the October revolution of 1917. When the commissars came to their house, they took their paralyzed grandfather and loaded him on a cart. The grandfather shouted, “Take vengeance on them for me!”
To be honest, I was very satisfied with our conversation. Marina is indeed an intelligent woman; our interest towards mysticism is yet another thing, which brings us together. In the end of our dialogue, Marina told that she had been interested in Freemasonry and Isālm. She loves Isālm so much; I also told her I was interested in this religion. She again began to reason, that Jews hated Russians, and that Judaism was bad. I told her, “It is all about personality, not about nationality. There are good people and bad people among the representatives of any ethnos”. She agreed. “However, Freemasonry is not good for us” – she concluded. I was doubtful about these words. Why not? Anyway, each person has the right to have his/her own opinion about anything. I was pleased with this conversation; it brought me a lot of genuine pleasure. Marina is not only an intelligent woman, as I have already said, she is a talented poet, and her poetry is full of beautiful imagery. I am sincerely happy to have such an acquaintance, I hope we will meet in person someday; she wants to meet me, too. I hope so.
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