sft

A Subs Space... OVER 18!
2018-07-10 06:49:29 (UTC)

3 days later...

... and i have only heard from Master once, in those 3 days, and that was only a brief email, saying He wishes He could be there for me more, as i have had a really bad time just recently :(

i feel like i've slipped into little space, and i'm feeling a bit down about everything that's happening around me right now, especially with Daddy (Master). If *we* were fine, i'd be ok... i could cope with all the other stuff, but we're not fine, and i don't even know if we ever will be again, which is hard to think about, let alone talk about, or write about :(

i'm trying to stay on track, at least with my health and normal day-to-day life in a vanilla sense, but D/s has all but disappeared from my life for now. i feel good about myself, but there's no-one to share that feeling with now, and sex of any kind, is the furthest thing from my mind. i cannot remember the last time i felt like playing! i haven't had any kind of sexual contact since i last saw Daddy, 3 weeks ago now.

It's difficult, because i don't have any say in what happens in the future, and that's a scary thought... knowing it's completely out of my hands... and i can't do, or say a thing, to save *us*.

Having said all that, i won't give up on Him, but it makes it hard to be close to Him, when He feels so far away at the moment...




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