✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2018-07-05 01:18:41 (UTC)

Missing Out

Dear Reader,

I spent pretty much all day finishing my laundry from yesterday, and deep cleaning my room..

Chaz asked me around 9 what I was doing for the 4th, and I noticed he said before that, he was going to a party with his friend.

It didn’t occur to me that everyone else my age is probably barbecuing, having parties, going out, shooting or watching fireworks..
and that I was probably one of the few people who spent the day cleaning and doing laundry...

And it was such a process to even get to this point to finally clean it, and I was feeling good and accomplished.. but now I feel like.. I’m missing out.

I really wish I could have gone with him. And I’m not even interested in parties... I just want to hang out with him, and dress up and feel and look good.. and get out of the damn house.

All I ever dress up for is literally going to Walmart on weekends with my aunt.

I wish I had friends.. I wish I had a social life. I wish I wasn’t such a loser.

I’ll probably look back at this time of my life when I’m older and wish I could come back and kick my ass for missing out while I had the energy..

Sincerely,
Me




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