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Ramblings & RL Stories
Got an email about my journal.....man it’s been a long while.
I’m proud to say, I left my abuser, and got a different one, left that one, and have been getting better in the past 3 years.
I moved, my children are growing up. My youngest is now 10, oldest is now 26.
Sadly, the two older children don’t speak to me. The third one, well, she’s 19 and finding her own path. My 17, she’s a handful at times, but learning along the way.
I finally started working, something my shrink years ago said would never happen. Been working for the same company for almost 4 years now. I love the job, but don’t like the company. The employees are like underpaid slaves. No benefits, no promotions, no rewards.....but I love what I do.
Doctors are pushing me to get on disability, I have been fighting them for a year now. But think it might be time. I’m going to be forced to because I can’t physically do it anymore.
I finished my cancer battle. Been almost 2 years free now. Had shoulder surgery. Found out I have fibromyalgia, and other health issues. So a whole new struggle.
My mental health is better tho. No more bipolar medication for 4 years now, and I’m doing ok. Not great, but ok. I took myself off everything and changed things in my life and that helped a ton.
I’m currently using CBD oil. It’s been a God sent. It’s helped me in so many ways.
(I’m going to save here....and be right back)
I started almost 2 years ago, with a new partner. Things go well. We still live in separate households. He has 4 kids, 2 are over 21, and then there are 10 year old twins.
There’s no parental structure .... but I’m working on that.
I’ve got my hands full, but am willing to take it on for now. Their mom died 4 years ago.
Other than that, life is life. Kids growing up, realizing I will be home alone.
I will stop here, it’s the 4th of July, and soon to start grilling with the family.