Do Not Disturb

2018-07-02 19:14:16 (UTC)

I don't know anymore

Dear journal,

Have I made the right decision of wanting to go out with him?

I mean yes I do like him but I feel like I'm rushing into yet another relationship yet again. It takes a while for him to hug me even when I ask for one. I mean we only just started dating. I want a guy who have me as his screensaver but he hasn't asked for my picture or anything yet. I know he says they aren't dating. But I just he had a picture of him and her as his screensaver but he never once asked a picture of me to be his screensaver or his lock screen.

I'm trying to trust him but I just can't trust him. I can't trust nobody anymore. I feel like I'm depressed. My mom to even says that I'm almost never happy anymore. I'm always wanting to sleep. But that doesn't mean I'm depressed right. I just want a guy who can love me unconditionally. I feel as if, he said I love you too early.

Like yesterday when we started dating early. But honestly I feel like he already was in love with me from the very beginning. I haven't really had feelings for him but now I do. But I just also feel like he just wanna touch me in my " places" because that's all he's been wanting to for the past couple of days or so.

Nobody listen to me. This diary is the only thing I have. I'm to emotionally sensitive. I get hurt by guys who say they "love me" and "like me" but they don't. He says he does but I just.... I just don't believe him. I'm trying too. I'm really am.

Coming back to my cousin's for the 4th of July ( which I already said before) . At least their won't be no annoying brother involved. So yay for that. I still feel sleepy. 😪.... I've been up allll night. And mostly cuddled up with him.

Write more as soon as possible


The Forgotten One

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