Scream Above the Sounds
Another night awaits in the gates of hell tonight. Last night went pretty fast. Friday's are always easier because there are 2-3 guys that work a Friday night that I get on with really well so it flies by. Tonight, not so much.
We've got 4 new starters tonight. They started last week but I didn't really get to spend much time with them. I'm so busy with delivery and various other things that I don't really have time or even see half of the members of staff anymore. Let alone have any time to train new people up. Which works out for me because I don't really like training people anyway. I can't imagine many people do. I don't know anything about any of them really. One is apparently a bullshitter and has allegedly been sacked from Tesco, 9 times! Why he would brag about something like that is beyond me but, there we go. The girl looked a bit dippy. She seemed nice, friendly. Just a bit dim. I don't know anything about the other two. One is married with a kid maybe. I can't remember.
It was far too hot to sleep today. My window was wide open, my fan was on full blast. I slept naked. None of it mattered though, it was like an absolute furnace in my bedroom. It still is now. I woke up and received a message from my mum saying "We're just going to get KFC". So that was a pretty good start to the day. I haven't got work for another two hours yet but I'm trying to get back on track with this diary and logging my thoughts and just general day-to-day stuff. I want to try and keep this going and not just fade away and ditch it, because this has helped me quite a lot.
Tonight should be a relatively easy night. I mean I haven't got any data on my phone and the wifi hasn't worked in work for over a month so I'm pretty screwed when it comes to breaks and lunch but lately I've just been sleeping on lunch anyway. Saturday's are never too busy and with the new starters, we've got plenty of head's to get the entire delivery done I think. The girl I was close with in work messaged me today and asked me if I ever wanted to be friends with her again. It seems very primary school/kindergarten to say, but she was the one who "broke friends" with me. I told her it was her decision to make and not mine. She said she couldn't be friends with me anymore, not the other way around. So that's something I'll probably have to try and address after work. Assuming I don't get in from work and just crash out.
My legs are slowly recovering from football. It's insane the amount of pain I'm still feeling. I'm so unfit, it's untrue. My legs hurt just walking down the stairs. I've been asked to play again next week as well. I don't know how I'm going to make it. My friend is having a BBQ in two weeks and him and his girlfriend are inviting a big group of both of their friends. It's on a Saturday though so I'll only stay briefly and then I'll have to go to work. My friend is hinting to me that there are going to be a lot of "single girls" but I'm just not bothered. I pretty much flat out told him that I'd be too busy studying and then raiding on WoW 3 nights a week, like a complete nerd. I just haven't really got the time and don't even know when I'll be ready for something serious, probably never. I don't think I could have something serious until I finished my studies anyway. I've not even started yet and I'm not even close to where I want to be. I don't think I'd be ready for anything until I'm like 30. I don't even know if I'll make it to 30. He did mention though that they are trying to set my friend up with somebody so that'll be pretty interesting to watch. He's been single for 5 years or so and I think they are feeling quite sorry for him. I think I might just show up with a sign on my head saying "DAMAGED GOODS" so no women talk to me. I'm not really interesting enough to carry a conversation either. If you aren't interested in football, wrestling, video games or my shit, dark sense of humour, I'm out. I mean music is always easy because I listen and enjoy so many different types of music but it's whatever. Maybe I should get that dreadful Post Malone tattoo "Stay Away" or something like that.
I need the coldest of showers